Oyinkan Braithwaite

But one thing I have realized also is that I've forgotten a lot about my sister, the serial killer.

You know, people would say things to me.

I'm like, oh, that happened.

That's so cool that I did that.

I've forgotten a lot about it.

I had an awkward interaction the other day where someone asked me what was celebrating me on the first line of my sister, the serial killer.

And, you know, I was like, oh, thank you, thank you.

And then she was like, oh, she couldn't remember what it was and wanted me to say it to her, like what the first line was.

And my mind drew a blank.

I could not remember what the first line was.

And, yeah, it was, you know, I walked away from that interaction thinking she's going to think I didn't write this book.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I mean, you know, it's it's a way in.

And, you know, but I think maybe I remember it if I had the first line came to me so smoothly.

And so maybe if it had been something that I had like being like, oh, no.

And I had to which, you know, there are sentences that I like that you're like, it's not working.

It's not working.

I have to maybe that would stick in your mind more than the one that just flowed out of you.

I don't write with a plan because I have this fear that if I plot out the story, because obviously there are different levels of plotting, but I have this fear that if I plot out A all the way through Z, my brain will tell me the story is done and then there won't be anything to push me forward except A.

you know, that I want this piece out in the world, there won't be because the way I do it, the story almost feels like I'm as much a consumer as I am the producer of this thing, because I don't know every which way it's going to go.