Patrick Foster

I just need like 12 hours to sleep apart from anything else.

She was incredible in that moment.

She didn't try and force anything.

She didn't sort of,

I did that and the next day, the rest of my family came and we had to sit down around a table, literally like this one.

And I can't explain to anybody how hard it was telling them.

It took so long for me to get stuff out.

I kept saying, I can't tell you, it's that bad.

They kept just saying, look, we wanna know everything.

And I think apart from anything, they were just so relieved because they realized that finally,

I was prepared to finally be totally honest and open and that there was no more layers that they needed to unpick that they'd tried to unpick for so long before that.

And it was then like, okay, we can now make a plan to move forward.

And I remember my parents looking me in the eyes and saying, look, we're going to support you through all of this, but you're going to play your part because you're the only person who can stop or do anything about it.

And that was one of the most important messages because it was like, right, no one else is going to do this for me.

I've got support.

There's a long way to go, but

it needs me to grab the bull by the horns and do this.

And that kind of mindset shift was massive.

I then spoke to somebody who was a recovering drug addict who ran a rehabilitation or treatment center in London.

And I had a conversation with her and she said,