Patrick Foster

And I have strategies to deal with urges and temptations that honestly don't exist in the same way as they did in the early days of my recovery.

I don't think about gambling.

I talk about it a lot, but I don't think about it.

I know that financially...

It's not going to ever benefit me.

I've got more money now than I've ever had and it's mine and that's good enough for me.

So it's just sort of understanding it and recognizing that there are plenty of other people that do and people can do what they want, but I can't.

So that's okay too.

Yeah, so I mean, I guess I had a lot of difficult decisions to make.

But one of the things that I had to decide was I could have declared myself bankrupt at that point.

And then no one would have got any money back.

But then I was aware that people could potentially then press charges against me because I'd forged signatures on contracts and all these sorts of things.

But also there was part of me that thought, well, it's these people's money.

They lent it to me in good faith and I betrayed them and therefore...

they need to get that money back.

I've obviously not got that money and I'm not going to be able to pay them back straight away.

But over time, hopefully I can.

So I decided to come clean to all my creditors and basically say, look, this is where I'm at.

This is the situation and this is what's happened.

Pray for forgiveness.