Peepal Baba

I was very happy reading books, sitting in my garden, watching the trees, listening to the birds.

I thought this is life.

I didn't want to be a doctor.

I didn't want to be an engineer.

I had no ambition in life.

I had no competition in life.

In school when they used to say that, you know, I was in the football team in one of one or two schools in which

So I used to play football because I loved football.

And they would say, no, you have to run fast.

You have to put it out with goal.

And, you know, once or twice when I did score, I felt bad.

Why?

I felt bad, you know, because they were looking so sad, you know.

I said, I don't want to play to hurt anybody, you know.

So that spirit of...

competition and you know getting ahead in life it was never there because that's the way my grandparents taught me that's the way now I didn't know it was happening over that time but now when I write my diaries and all that now I realize you know they used to always say no no no why why do you have to get ahead in life where will you reach in life what will happen even if you get ahead in life even if you are number one in the class

You know, so I had this thing that I used to fear that I would get the highest marks.

I was very happy being third, fourth, second in the class.

So you can call it a psychological disorder or whatever it is.

But there was no competition.