Pepper

I think the first part of it was there was a certain scenario that I couldn't give to him.

So he was allowed to do that outside of the relationship.

It's kind of hard to explain, but...

he had this like fetish, I guess you could say that I couldn't give to him.

So it was like the cuckold situation.

Obviously I wasn't his wife and he didn't want it that way anyway.

So he was allowed to go and do that.

And then we kind of got into, um, adult friend finder and then we were on SLS.

And so we ended up at like,

I think a strip club for like a meet and greet type of thing where they like a bunch of people come in.

And then we ended up at a closed hotel party for like new years.

Like they closed the hotel, they cover the windows.

Everybody's walking around partially nude, nude, fun clothes, like totally really fun atmosphere, by the way.

And then, you know, during those whole,

few years, it was kind of like, oh, well, what do you think about this?

Or how do you feel about that?

Or that kind of thing?

So I kind of believe now looking back at it that he wasn't really interested in me with anyone else.

But it seemed like he said he was, but anytime we got into that situation where that was going to happen, something was off or something was uncomfortable.

And we had always agreed as a couple, like if something doesn't feel right or if anybody says no, it's a no.