Professor Katriona O'Sullivan

The difference is that I am here and some of them are not and they're stuck because it's really hard to escape when you're in that track and you've been in that track for long.

So there are loads of similarities in terms of how we, our outcomes.

I think, you know, I had John at 16 and while that's not recommended, like having a child actually really kind of added a layer of motivation to me to try to write myself, to not be like them anymore.

And so that kind of pushed me in ways that maybe my siblings, some of the siblings, not all of them, because two of them are doing really well in their lives and they're really, really doing well and happy ones in recovery.

Ten years, he's flying rays, really happy.

So we're not all in a bad way.

But like every child, no child has the same childhood in the same home.

Like all our childers are different.

Be it how our parents relate to us, our schooling experience.

And I suppose the ones that came after me.

So my younger brother, Matthew, and my sister, the addiction was worse and worse when they came in my parents' case.

So maybe that might be one of the reasons why, because my older two are doing a lot better than they are.

I can't fathom it because even though I have a psychology degree you can't look at yourself and really know what it is but I also think like I was really lucky to be in Ireland at the time that I was here like there was loads of lucky things that happened to me along my life that like and I know I took the chances but I also think there was lots of lucky things that happened to me and like my brother went to prison when he was 16 like when you go to prison I

And you're in the cycle and it's very hard to step out of the cycle.

So once you've gone to prison, it's different.

Girls don't really go to prison in the same way that boys do when they're delinquents.

So he's in the prison cycle.

And then that is just... And when you're 16 and you're in prison, right?

Emotionally, no matter what you've been through, that cycle is just really, really hard.

And I couldn't rescue him.