Rachael Kirkconnell

And I think that we were both worried about production having, like, little tricks up their sleeve, which ended up, you know, us not getting our final date and... I remember Chris Harrison showing up to my door telling me that Matt's really confused and he doesn't want to see me. And at first I'm laughing because I'm like, this is so you guys, this is not him.

And I think that we were both worried about production having, like, little tricks up their sleeve, which ended up, you know, us not getting our final date and... I remember Chris Harrison showing up to my door telling me that Matt's really confused and he doesn't want to see me. And at first I'm laughing because I'm like, this is so you guys, this is not him.

But then I have a meltdown because I'm like, well, whoever it is, I don't get my last date now. And, you know, we don't get like our last moment together before all of this ends. And now I'm going into this proposal. feeling terrible and feeling very insecure and just weird about the whole thing. Like, it was a really heavy feeling on the day.

But then I have a meltdown because I'm like, well, whoever it is, I don't get my last date now. And, you know, we don't get like our last moment together before all of this ends. And now I'm going into this proposal. feeling terrible and feeling very insecure and just weird about the whole thing. Like, it was a really heavy feeling on the day.

But then I have a meltdown because I'm like, well, whoever it is, I don't get my last date now. And, you know, we don't get like our last moment together before all of this ends. And now I'm going into this proposal. feeling terrible and feeling very insecure and just weird about the whole thing. Like, it was a really heavy feeling on the day.

But I knew, yeah, I mean, as soon as he said he couldn't propose, it was one of those things where I was, like, not disappointed, but I just was... thinking like, okay, you're not proposing, but are we still gonna be together? I guess I was like, what's true, what's not true? Are you about to break up with me? Are we about to not be together or do you still wanna be with me?

But I knew, yeah, I mean, as soon as he said he couldn't propose, it was one of those things where I was, like, not disappointed, but I just was... thinking like, okay, you're not proposing, but are we still gonna be together? I guess I was like, what's true, what's not true? Are you about to break up with me? Are we about to not be together or do you still wanna be with me?

But I knew, yeah, I mean, as soon as he said he couldn't propose, it was one of those things where I was, like, not disappointed, but I just was... thinking like, okay, you're not proposing, but are we still gonna be together? I guess I was like, what's true, what's not true? Are you about to break up with me? Are we about to not be together or do you still wanna be with me?

So then when he was like, I still want to be with you, I wanna try this out in the real world, I was excited, but the rest of the, felt like they were literally breaking down the set as we were still doing like our final, they were done. They were like- Stop. Waste of a seat. Yeah, they were just, it felt like a failure, like, cause they didn't get an engagement out of it.

So then when he was like, I still want to be with you, I wanna try this out in the real world, I was excited, but the rest of the, felt like they were literally breaking down the set as we were still doing like our final, they were done. They were like- Stop. Waste of a seat. Yeah, they were just, it felt like a failure, like, cause they didn't get an engagement out of it.

So then when he was like, I still want to be with you, I wanna try this out in the real world, I was excited, but the rest of the, felt like they were literally breaking down the set as we were still doing like our final, they were done. They were like- Stop. Waste of a seat. Yeah, they were just, it felt like a failure, like, cause they didn't get an engagement out of it.

Well, that's what I thought at the time. Like when we're having that conversation off camera, I'm thinking like, wow, he's so level headed. And I love the idea of like.

Well, that's what I thought at the time. Like when we're having that conversation off camera, I'm thinking like, wow, he's so level headed. And I love the idea of like.

Well, that's what I thought at the time. Like when we're having that conversation off camera, I'm thinking like, wow, he's so level headed. And I love the idea of like.

I think that he felt so much pressure with just how the state of the world was or the state that the world was in at the time with Black Lives Matter. And that was the year after George Floyd. And it was like just such a heavy pressure. heavy topic in our country at the time. And then of course, all of the controversy within the show did not help.

I think that he felt so much pressure with just how the state of the world was or the state that the world was in at the time with Black Lives Matter. And that was the year after George Floyd. And it was like just such a heavy pressure. heavy topic in our country at the time. And then of course, all of the controversy within the show did not help.

I think that he felt so much pressure with just how the state of the world was or the state that the world was in at the time with Black Lives Matter. And that was the year after George Floyd. And it was like just such a heavy pressure. heavy topic in our country at the time. And then of course, all of the controversy within the show did not help.

And I think he felt so much pressure to just make the right decision and to stand by what was right for him at the time. And, you know, strangers and people that were really close to him in his life were saying, like, I don't think you should be with her. And so I think at the time he thought that was the right decision just to take a step back and.

And I think he felt so much pressure to just make the right decision and to stand by what was right for him at the time. And, you know, strangers and people that were really close to him in his life were saying, like, I don't think you should be with her. And so I think at the time he thought that was the right decision just to take a step back and.

And I think he felt so much pressure to just make the right decision and to stand by what was right for him at the time. And, you know, strangers and people that were really close to him in his life were saying, like, I don't think you should be with her. And so I think at the time he thought that was the right decision just to take a step back and.