Rachel Bilson

It's yeah, it's, it's, it's so tough.

Right.

Because battling your head and your body, because there's totally different things.

And even if I want to have sex, my head could be like, no, I don't really want to.

And then you're stuck in that pattern of like, okay, I'm going to calculate this.

Yeah.

It was probably like the last year and a half of doing a pattern until it finally broke off, you know, and just sticking to that and being like, cause I'm a very, I'm a people pleaser that carries over into relationships.

Like if you need an orgasm, it's so much easier and quicker.

Okay, so I have very little experience with this.

I didn't even have a vibrator until a few years ago.

Like, I was gifted one from a guy I was dating.

I was like, fuck yeah, like, that's awesome.

Like, okay, he's totally open.

And I feel like that shows a guy with awareness, right?

Right.

And I had I've only used one with that person.

And I haven't really brought it back since.

But I would like to.

I did.

Except there was like one thing we were doing and it like really hurt.