Rachel Forde

I had a little bit of control.

I knew what I was doing was wrong.

But I was able to control it a little bit and definitely hide it.

And like, as I said there earlier, I became a mom quite early and I moved out of home probably by the time I was 18, if not 19.

So I was left to my own devices then as such.

Do you know?

So hiding things was quite easy for me.

Yeah, so in my teenage years, I was probably confined to drink some prescription medication and weed, hash.

And then I suppose my early 20s, the devil came into play, cocaine.

I found that and never in my life did I ever experience the release that that drug gave me.

So that started in my early 20s, but like that, I was able to manage it for a while.

I had a car crash in 2009 and I was prescribed very strong painkillers.

These painkillers I had had before and I liked the feeling of them.

but kind of took them or left them but when I had this serious injury in my back of my neck I was prescribed really strong painkillers and I remember my monthly prescription would be 224 of these painkillers at the start I'd be lucky if they lasted me 10 days and towards the end 4 days maybe

Up to 90 a day.

Like 9-0, yeah.

We're not talking paracetamol here now, we're talking hardcore prescribed.

So then when they ran out, I'd find where I could buy them from people.

No, no.

They were just people who weren't taking them?