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Coming up on Keep It Positive, Sweetie. My question was like, what is my real purpose? Same thing, like, you know, with the talent and everything that I pour in to be the best that I could be, why aren't I put up here in the light? And then, you know, for me, the clarity was, you know, sometimes you're not supposed to be in the light because you are the light. You know what I'm saying?

Coming up on Keep It Positive, Sweetie. My question was like, what is my real purpose? Same thing, like, you know, with the talent and everything that I pour in to be the best that I could be, why aren't I put up here in the light? And then, you know, for me, the clarity was, you know, sometimes you're not supposed to be in the light because you are the light. You know what I'm saying?

I was so happy to see you.

I was so happy to see you.

I'm glad that was the first show because these other years I've been working my way up to that.

I'm glad that was the first show because these other years I've been working my way up to that.

Yeah, I grew up shy.

Yeah, I grew up shy.

We used to have talent shows and my mom would always try to get me in it. I was Paula Abdul one time. You heard of the cat? Yes. I was the cat and I was supposed to not get on stage. I was like, absolutely not. But my mom, she's really into that. She's the youngest of 13 kids. So she's the fun one. So every family reunion, she was Tina Turner.

We used to have talent shows and my mom would always try to get me in it. I was Paula Abdul one time. You heard of the cat? Yes. I was the cat and I was supposed to not get on stage. I was like, absolutely not. But my mom, she's really into that. She's the youngest of 13 kids. So she's the fun one. So every family reunion, she was Tina Turner.

And I had to be her backup ground dancer. So we would watch Tina Turner, study the videos, the movements every year. And that's where I learned to really perform. She's the beginning of that for me.

And I had to be her backup ground dancer. So we would watch Tina Turner, study the videos, the movements every year. And that's where I learned to really perform. She's the beginning of that for me.

I love that. But I mean, I think like... I was in LA last night and the homies were like, yo, you are so confident. And I think because I'm going through this healing phase and I love myself more and I'm more secure in myself, I can be more free on stage to allow people to see all parts of me.

I love that. But I mean, I think like... I was in LA last night and the homies were like, yo, you are so confident. And I think because I'm going through this healing phase and I love myself more and I'm more secure in myself, I can be more free on stage to allow people to see all parts of me.

During the healing phase, man, you really have to sit with yourself and be honest with yourself, forgive yourself for some things, for not taking care of yourself, for not speaking up for yourself. Because I think I had put myself in situations that left me in a bad place trying to be there for other people, trying to be that thing for other people. And you go home and mentally it's so much.

During the healing phase, man, you really have to sit with yourself and be honest with yourself, forgive yourself for some things, for not taking care of yourself, for not speaking up for yourself. Because I think I had put myself in situations that left me in a bad place trying to be there for other people, trying to be that thing for other people. And you go home and mentally it's so much.

You're not happy. You're caring a lot. And you have to learn. I have to affirm myself. I can't let this world do it. I can't look for that validation. I can't be sad if I don't get a certain... Let the ego part go. And I just had to learn to be happy with me. Whatever is for me is for me. I'm not trying to make y'all happy. I'm trying to make me happy.

You're not happy. You're caring a lot. And you have to learn. I have to affirm myself. I can't let this world do it. I can't look for that validation. I can't be sad if I don't get a certain... Let the ego part go. And I just had to learn to be happy with me. Whatever is for me is for me. I'm not trying to make y'all happy. I'm trying to make me happy.

And I think once I understood that, it just fell into place. But it was a journey. You know it's not easy at all. It's not, trust me. A lot of crying, a lot of solitude. I didn't want to talk to nobody. It was during the pandemic, so... That was a rough time for everybody. Yeah. I didn't turn the TV on. I hardly watched TV. One of my best friends, Bianca, loves you. Shout out, B. I love her.

And I think once I understood that, it just fell into place. But it was a journey. You know it's not easy at all. It's not, trust me. A lot of crying, a lot of solitude. I didn't want to talk to nobody. It was during the pandemic, so... That was a rough time for everybody. Yeah. I didn't turn the TV on. I hardly watched TV. One of my best friends, Bianca, loves you. Shout out, B. I love her.