Ric Elias

You're in survival mode.

You're going to die.

There was this sense of almost embarrassment of how much I had allowed my ego to be who showed up in the world.

How much I had spent energy being wronged by people or...

Being more or less than better or worse than how much my ego played a role in how I showed up every day.

And it was this notion that, you know what, I hate it.

I hated what that meant and that I didn't realize that that was a mask that I was putting on and that I didn't need to have that mask on.

That ego started with, okay, where does that come from?

And for me, Patrick, it was a lot of learning.

I have this moment when the plane is going to crash.

We talked about religion a bit today, and I don't share this a lot.

I don't know how people take it, but I ask myself, okay, do I buy insurance?

I can ask for forgiveness.

I was raised Catholic.

I can ask for insurance right now.

And for sure, if there is such a thing, and I'm not a practicing Catholic or wasn't at the time a practicing Catholic,

And I said to myself, I am not because I'm not a hypocrite.

I may be all flawed in many ways, but it's not that.

And it just didn't feel natural to me.

And what happened as a result to me after that, after just saying, hey, this is who I am, is I let go of all guilt.