Richard Feidler
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
Yes, I was.
I mean, I'm this naive.
What am I now, like 23 or 24?
I was so naive.
He said, oh, we've got to go down to Bristol now.
And we went to this place and literally they were like dark suits, sunglasses and guns.
And they didn't smile.
And I'm sitting there watching them do all this big time drug dealing.
And I'm thinking, what am I doing here?
that's where drugs can take you.
They can take you into very, very dark places and you don't even realise at the time.
Look, I can only do that in retrospect.
But when I look back at my life now, I can see that had that not happened to me, my life may have been different.
Of course, I don't know.
But the effects of that, the self-destruction, the self-hatred.
And so everything that I was doing was acting out of that space.
And I couldn't see it at the time.
All that was a way of not dealing with what had happened.
But what had happened was so repressed for all those years till it came up again.
I didn't even think about it.