Richard Feidler

No.

Well, no, there's nothing straight and narrow about me.

No.

So yes, I decided I'd had enough.

I was still smoking dope though, but I landed, I got in with a household in Glebe near Wentworth Park.

There wasn't, there was dope, but there was more alcohol.

And I knew that I couldn't do the hard drugs anymore, but I was starting to fall to pieces.

Like I just, something was going on.

So I started drinking a lot, beer, which I hate.

I mean, I just, anything that they put in front of me, anything to stop.

And so what happened was that I actually went into psychosis and I was mad.

I literally went mad.

And I saw a psychiatrist at Roselle and told him a whole lot of crap.

But he gave me something called Modicate, which is a drug for schizophrenia.

And that completely bombed me out.

I tried to get myself into Roselle Hospital because I knew I just was falling apart.

I was suicidal.

I didn't know what was going on.

I didn't know I was in a psychosis.

And someone put me into a detox centre and the person who answered the phone told me about this self-help group and these people came and took me to this support group for people who were trying to get off drugs and alcohol.