Richard Feidler

I felt like he was a bit older.

He had a deeper voice.

But yeah, so those things in the next eight years of not being able to pick up a drink or a drug, not to take anything, no medication.

I decided I didn't want any medication, even though it was offered to me.

It meant that I had to face that literally stunk, cold, sober.

So it was eight years of madness, really.

Yeah, well, yes, the anger I had, the anger I had over men was for a long time, a very, very long time.

I just, what I learned from that, though...

which is, I just think it's magic, is I actually have learned, because all my boundaries, I mean, I had no boundaries from the childhood abuse.

That was one of my problems.

I couldn't respect other people's boundaries when I was in relationships because I didn't have any.

They'd been taken away from me.

So I would just walk over people's boundaries all the time.

A really bad habit of mine.

Not now.

But one of the things in my healing journey was I learned to have a, I got a boundary for the first time.

So now I actually have more male friends.

I am not scared of men.

I'm hypervigilant, unfortunately, all the time.

So I don't sleep well.