Richard Gadd

It just served me out the game.

I look back and think I should have stepped outside.

Every time I got to the top of us, kind of like the next test, I should have changed and gone to the next test and I kept kind of challenging myself.

I think I was too comfortable to sit

in North Fife as the best squash player, rather than go out and test.

Because when it went to the kind of national level, I just got thumped every single time.

And I have vivid memories of seeing my dad just absolutely standing watching, just feeling bad for me, I suppose is the easiest way of putting it.

And just feeling like I'd really disappointed him.

Not that he was ever like that kind of parent or whatever that, he was always very supportive.

But I just could see on his face that,

I didn't know whether he was feeling embarrassment for me or whether he was just feeling sorry for me.

But either way, I just remember looking up at him, you know, the feeling I was an indestructible squash player.

And not only my points were so bad, because of how bad my points were, the Scottish Midlands finished bottom of the league.

And that was when I decided to call it a day.

Yeah, that's the bigger pressure for sure.

I mean, I think failure is hugely important, almost more important than success in a lot of ways.

And I think like,

I always think like there's a quote by Samuel Beckett.

You might know it.

Fail once, fail twice, fail better.