Rick Glassman

I don't know if nervous is the best word, but it's the best way I can think of to explain the feeling.

It's a feeling of nervousness, but it's almost like...

the space between what am I going to do and I've been doing this many times and I always feel this way, I know it'll be fine, right?

And my mom says to me sometimes before a show, at least she used to, now she said, be funny, just like a thing to say.

And I would always, I say, and now I say, I'll try, I mean, maybe, but the only thing that's in my control is to be present.

And it sounds corny, but I really say that to myself because if I go in with the responsibility of being funny, what if I'm not?

and I very well might not be, and if that's what I need to be, then I might fail.

Not that there's a problem with failing, but I don't wanna set myself up for this idea of I might be failing when I'm just trying to get in a mindset.

If I'm present, I believe that that's the best opportunity I have to be funny.

So if I'm not gonna be funny today,

Chances are it's because I wasn't present.

And if I was present and not funny, then I wasn't going to be funny anyway.

And one of the reasons I'm thinking of that is one of the ways that helps me do that is...

Well, you know, it's easy to say to be present as like affirmations, this idea of looking in the mirror and saying, I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and gosh darn it, people love me, whatever.

Like, if I don't believe that, then he's not going to believe it.

So what can I believe?

And what I can believe is this idea of this, like,

acceptance versus getting yourself better.

I know I can be better.

I want to be better and I want to try and be better, but I'm about to go on stage in one minute.