Rishi Keshe Hirway

So it didn't feel like he was himself yet.

And he was moving kind of slowly.

And he came in and he

He sat down on his bed and, you know, we had gotten rid of his car because he was no longer going to be able to drive.

We had just changed the sort of parameters around his life to adjust for this.

And he sat and he just said, he said, wow, I can't believe how fast things can change.

And when I came home from that trip, there had been so much going on for me in those kind of quiet hours in the hospital room where I was just...

wondering if my dad was going to make it or not, because it was definitely not clear, especially early on when he first got to the hospital.

And just thinking about what that would mean for sort of like the legacy of our relationship, because he and I, we've just never connected in the way that I longed for, I guess.

My dream for what a relationship with anybody, but especially with a parent, with a family member,

my dad and I have just never had that.

And I've never been able to figure out why, like how it is that we can be related and be so, so different.

I mean, I think he would say it himself.

He doesn't really understand my work, my life, my existence as an artist, like what motivates that.

And I'd gone to see a friend's memorial for his father.

And he read the text that his dad had sent.

My friend, who's a musician and a composer.

His dad said, you know, your mother and I went to see the movie that you scored.

It was so beautiful.

And from the first note, it was so clearly you.