Robin Doan

I really hate being alone because I feel like that's when my mind wanders the most and I think the worst thoughts of what if I could have done this or what if I could have done that.

Should I have gone and woke up Zach?

I think it impacts her every day.

Robin has to deal with nightmares still.

She has to deal with repetitive memory of what happened to her.

She told me all the time she remembered her mom screaming.

There were times when she'd text me at night and say, you know, I hear things going on and she was very

very scared whenever noises would happen.

And just because she doesn't show it on the outside, I think that she obviously has to deal with it on the inside.

I am very superstitious, I guess.

The day that everything happened, I had on socks, and I had on long sleeves and long pants.

I will not sleep in long sleeves, long pants, or socks now.

I will not sleep with my door open because I feel like there's a figure of a person standing in my doorway.

I'm scared of the dark.

When I walk into the house and I know that I'm there by myself, I will go through every single nook and cranny in the house to make sure that there's no one in there.

The dates that are really hard are birthdays.

Zach's birthday, Mom's birthday, Brian's birthday.

Even my birthday is hard because I don't like celebrating it without them.

I just have those days where I want my mommy or want my stepdad or want my brother and want things to go back to being normal and you just can't help but burst out into tears.

I felt like I didn't need to talk to someone.