Ruslan KD

I was a junior altar boy and

Long story short, they end up sexually assaulting me, like repeatedly sexually assaulting me, starting from showing gay porn and then doing the acts on me.

And then in the midst of all that, it was framed as if I, as a seven-year-old, would initiate.

Seven years old?

Yeah, seven years old, seven, eight years old, that I was the one that initiated this stuff.

So even in the way it was framed was very twisted.

The church didn't do much.

They didn't do anything.

At the same time, my dad remarries, and my mom was bitter at the church because they remarried, and they shouldn't have remarried, technically, according to her, because they were, I guess, not divorced, as is according to her.

So she's angry at the church because they remarried my dad.

I'm like, this happened by these guys I met at the church, and you guys didn't do anything.

And so I was done.

I was like, there is no God.

And if there is a God, he does not like me.

So I had to have been the youngest self-professed atheist walking around.

Yeah.

Damn, man.

It's going to be okay.

The grace and the mercy of God can do wonders in transforming our hearts and reorienting us back into a healthy place.

There's going to be some work.