Ruslan KD

I'm not there yet, but I work hard because I value these things.

I think churches can do all sorts of goofy things.

i think over emphasizing growth i think over emphasizing um maybe over emphasizing politics you know i think over emphasizing um the social programs i think there's all sorts of things they can do the the idea is how many people can you be faithful with is it a thousand is it fourteen hundred is it ten thousand is it five thousand right what what are people doing you know in our church in our city the church that planted my church is a church called north coast uh vista

Ironically enough, when I had a conversation with Nathan in January, I would love to hear if Nathan would acknowledge that he said this to me.

When I told him the circles I'm in, and I said, hey, this is who my pastor is, this is the pastor who pastors him and helped plant our church, he told me, oh, bro, you're connected to the gold standard of this stuff.

You're around guys that are doing the best at this when it comes to transparency.

I wonder if he would say that now,

I used to think growth is bad, big church is bad.

And then I went to North Coast and I met Pastor Chris Brown and what happened was, man,

One of my close friends, he lived in my studio.

I used to rent two condos next to each other.

Me and my family lived out of one.

I had my studio kind of like this, not as nice as this, but in the downstairs of the other.

In the upstairs, we'd always have rooms, different rappers, creative people, sometimes family would stay in the rooms.

And one of my friends, his name was Tanner, Tanner Ross, he got leukemia.

And, uh, he, um, I was downstairs.

He came down and told me he was going to the hospital.

We thought it was nothing.

He got leukemia and he beat it the first time.

But the second time, um, on Thanksgiving day of November, November, 2022 Thanksgiving day, he ended up, he came back and he died.