Russ (former informant)

And yet, I still feel like I'm betraying one more person that's close to me.

And yet, I still feel like I'm betraying one more person that's close to me.

It's all deception. It's all fucking lies created to confuse people. And the informants involved are just as confused as the people that were the targets. And these reports are based on search warrants, you know, provided to a judge. You are lying under oath. But you obtained a warrant under lies. You're a fucking criminal.

It's all deception. It's all fucking lies created to confuse people. And the informants involved are just as confused as the people that were the targets. And these reports are based on search warrants, you know, provided to a judge. You are lying under oath. But you obtained a warrant under lies. You're a fucking criminal.

And if you're breaking laws to catch a criminal, by definition, you are a fucking criminal. It's a fucked up system.

And if you're breaking laws to catch a criminal, by definition, you are a fucking criminal. It's a fucked up system.

There's been a bunch of close calls. I try to avoid it, you know what I'm saying, but there have been a bunch of close calls. I wake up, and I should be hoping for the best.

There's been a bunch of close calls. I try to avoid it, you know what I'm saying, but there have been a bunch of close calls. I wake up, and I should be hoping for the best.

I think everybody in this shit's a victim at certain levels. I certainly am. And maybe I'm not the worst victim, but, like, I do suffer from it daily. You know, it is a drug war, and I think I suffer from PTSD like any other soldier would. You know, you guys coming out of nowhere 20 years later, I finally settled in in life and got this stuff behind me. I'm dealing with it here again.

I think everybody in this shit's a victim at certain levels. I certainly am. And maybe I'm not the worst victim, but, like, I do suffer from it daily. You know, it is a drug war, and I think I suffer from PTSD like any other soldier would. You know, you guys coming out of nowhere 20 years later, I finally settled in in life and got this stuff behind me. I'm dealing with it here again.

You know, not poor me. I fucking deserve it. You know, say, like, explain the whole story to someone that I was born into this shit. Another victim of the drug game. People will just read it and say, you know what? They're fucking drug dealers and they got what they deserved. Because they're breaking laws, we can do anything we want to them. And maybe they're right. I don't know.

You know, not poor me. I fucking deserve it. You know, say, like, explain the whole story to someone that I was born into this shit. Another victim of the drug game. People will just read it and say, you know what? They're fucking drug dealers and they got what they deserved. Because they're breaking laws, we can do anything we want to them. And maybe they're right. I don't know.

It's a fucked up system that few people understand. And I wouldn't know how to change it. I know it would be tough.

It's a fucked up system that few people understand. And I wouldn't know how to change it. I know it would be tough.