Róisín Ingle

But then once they explained that they didn't like me not being proud of them, I started to.

to say it.

So now I'm really proud of my children, but it feels, it still jars a bit.

And it jars a little bit for me to say that I'm proud of myself, but I am because I see all the really best parts of my personality and my character coming up to meet this really hard challenge, you know?

And it's so, having spent a long time in my life being mean about myself and telling myself I'm useless and I'm shit and I'm fat and I'm ugly and no one's ever going to love me and all those things.

Like, I just go now, God, no, you were totally wrong.

And you're actually amazing.

And not that, not only I'm amazing, Johnny's amazing, the girls are amazing.

You know, everybody is, right?

Everybody has this capacity to find something in themselves that's going to help them when they really need the help.

And I'm so pleased about it.

Maybe pleased is better than proud.

Or maybe I can be proud of myself.

It's fine.

I mean, people say... I don't like it when people say to me, you know, you're very brave and you're... I don't like it, but that's just because... I don't know why I don't like that.

Because I don't feel brave.

That's the thing.

What I meant was I'm not battling or fighting because I don't want to battle my body.

Like, whatever's happening in my body is happening.

I want the medicine to come in and make it not kill me, you know, which it's doing.