Saint Jhn

Yeah. The cross is my logo.

Yeah. The cross is my logo.

Yeah, it just keeps not haunting me. Wouldn't be the right word, but it keeps trailing me it's always ever ever present because i definitely ran away from the institution of church yes i hated that i hated that i hated what it tried to force upon me i hated what it tried to teach me that i had to be i hated how prejudicial it was yeah and how

Yeah, it just keeps not haunting me. Wouldn't be the right word, but it keeps trailing me it's always ever ever present because i definitely ran away from the institution of church yes i hated that i hated that i hated what it tried to force upon me i hated what it tried to teach me that i had to be i hated how prejudicial it was yeah and how

hell and brim fire i hate that level of preaching i didn't like that it wasn't inclusive in whatever your journey could be or your process could be but in my daily regimen my daily practice i'm giving it up to god all the time even in the small ways my mom told me she said i was telling about something i was going through recently and she said cool you just got to go talk to god she was like she was like you know i don't beg god for nothing i love your mom's accent for nothing

hell and brim fire i hate that level of preaching i didn't like that it wasn't inclusive in whatever your journey could be or your process could be but in my daily regimen my daily practice i'm giving it up to god all the time even in the small ways my mom told me she said i was telling about something i was going through recently and she said cool you just got to go talk to god she was like she was like you know i don't beg god for nothing i love your mom's accent for nothing

I just go to the father and I said, look, father is what I need.

I just go to the father and I said, look, father is what I need.

And I'm like, yeah, mom, that's it. Yeah, that's it.

And I'm like, yeah, mom, that's it. Yeah, that's it.

She seems like she's cool.

She seems like she's cool.

I think my first thought is probably failing. Failing so much. Wow. Yeah, I've been through so much. I've failed, I've missed. So many times I'm proud of myself, but not proud of myself because I'm something special. I'm proud of myself because I've never given up on myself. So when I walk in a room, even if it's my first time in a room, it might be my last time in a room.

I think my first thought is probably failing. Failing so much. Wow. Yeah, I've been through so much. I've failed, I've missed. So many times I'm proud of myself, but not proud of myself because I'm something special. I'm proud of myself because I've never given up on myself. So when I walk in a room, even if it's my first time in a room, it might be my last time in a room.

I might never get back in that room again. And I'm grateful to be there. I could be the guy that's holding the camera. I could be the guy that's holding the lights. I could be the guy that's moving the plants. I could be the guy in front of the camera. I could be the guy that's moving the magazines. And I'm aware of that in my life. So I'm always grateful for everybody who's there.

I might never get back in that room again. And I'm grateful to be there. I could be the guy that's holding the camera. I could be the guy that's holding the lights. I could be the guy that's moving the plants. I could be the guy in front of the camera. I could be the guy that's moving the magazines. And I'm aware of that in my life. So I'm always grateful for everybody who's there.

I'm like, yo, what's up? Like, I don't know who you are, but I'm sure you're here for a reason. So I just want to say hi. And I think my confidence comes from all of the things, all the experiences, all of the pitfalls, all the missteps, all of the misinformation, all of the bad nights, but still having to get up in the early mornings to figure out how to do it again.

I'm like, yo, what's up? Like, I don't know who you are, but I'm sure you're here for a reason. So I just want to say hi. And I think my confidence comes from all of the things, all the experiences, all of the pitfalls, all the missteps, all of the misinformation, all of the bad nights, but still having to get up in the early mornings to figure out how to do it again.

Like, you got to keep the same energy. You know that when people say that, it took me a long, long time to realize what that meant. It means that even when it's bad, even when it's good, when a roller coaster goes up and a roller coaster goes down, when the day is rough, when your hair ain't done, your makeup is messed up, when your shoes is muddy, when your shirt is tatted.

Like, you got to keep the same energy. You know that when people say that, it took me a long, long time to realize what that meant. It means that even when it's bad, even when it's good, when a roller coaster goes up and a roller coaster goes down, when the day is rough, when your hair ain't done, your makeup is messed up, when your shoes is muddy, when your shirt is tatted.