Samaiya Mushtaq

And theoretically, they're collecting volunteers for something that may or may not happen. So in my mind, it wasn't like, no, you're not going to put your name on. In terms of the mechanics, I didn't know what that meant as far as like, is this telehealth? And then I remember the day he got the call. That there was a mission going in March. They need a wound care doctor. Wow.

And theoretically, they're collecting volunteers for something that may or may not happen. So in my mind, it wasn't like, no, you're not going to put your name on. In terms of the mechanics, I didn't know what that meant as far as like, is this telehealth? And then I remember the day he got the call. That there was a mission going in March. They need a wound care doctor. Wow.

And my stomach kind of fell. But also in me, there wasn't like this immediate absolutely not. I totally empathized with and also felt like this is a call to go. And I could see the merits of going, like in terms of the moral imperative to go. But then there's also the aspect of like, I know the person that I am married to and that I love.

And my stomach kind of fell. But also in me, there wasn't like this immediate absolutely not. I totally empathized with and also felt like this is a call to go. And I could see the merits of going, like in terms of the moral imperative to go. But then there's also the aspect of like, I know the person that I am married to and that I love.

And I know their sense of duty and conscientiousness and also their heart. Yeah. Loving this person means loving these aspects about them and supporting their love for others. But then there's also, we have young kids. What is this going to mean not just for the days he's gone, but for the possibility that he might not come back?

And I know their sense of duty and conscientiousness and also their heart. Yeah. Loving this person means loving these aspects about them and supporting their love for others. But then there's also, we have young kids. What is this going to mean not just for the days he's gone, but for the possibility that he might not come back?

In some ways, I don't even think it needed explaining because, I mean, I was seeing the same things he's seeing. It's like indiscriminate mass violence on social media. You can't ignore that. Mahmoud certainly is somebody, again, with that sense of presence, like he's reacting to what he's seeing. And me too, I mean, I'm intensely empathetic.

In some ways, I don't even think it needed explaining because, I mean, I was seeing the same things he's seeing. It's like indiscriminate mass violence on social media. You can't ignore that. Mahmoud certainly is somebody, again, with that sense of presence, like he's reacting to what he's seeing. And me too, I mean, I'm intensely empathetic.

It wasn't unilateral like that.

It wasn't unilateral like that.

We decided together he will go. So I remember one argument that we had around it where I was just like, this just feels really selfish. Like, I understand your altruism, but we are sacrificed for it. And there was like this anger in that moment. But I understand too that that was also selfishness for me because it's like I want to keep this person for ourselves.

We decided together he will go. So I remember one argument that we had around it where I was just like, this just feels really selfish. Like, I understand your altruism, but we are sacrificed for it. And there was like this anger in that moment. But I understand too that that was also selfishness for me because it's like I want to keep this person for ourselves.

But this person has gifts and tools and those need to be in service of more vulnerable people who need it right now in the immediate. Yeah. And my part is facilitating that by being the one who stays and by holding down the fort here so that he can go. And so it was very much a mutual decision. And, I mean, it was tough. You know, I was crying. And so there was that anxiety, certainly. Yeah.

But this person has gifts and tools and those need to be in service of more vulnerable people who need it right now in the immediate. Yeah. And my part is facilitating that by being the one who stays and by holding down the fort here so that he can go. And so it was very much a mutual decision. And, I mean, it was tough. You know, I was crying. And so there was that anxiety, certainly. Yeah.

But there was also kind of this acceptance. And I think this part really just came from faith. I really had to come to terms for me in my faith tradition that your time to go is your time to go wherever it is or however it is. But your time is your time.

But there was also kind of this acceptance. And I think this part really just came from faith. I really had to come to terms for me in my faith tradition that your time to go is your time to go wherever it is or however it is. But your time is your time.

I don't know if this answers your question, but there's this poem about Leila and Majnun. I don't know if you've heard it before, but it's like this classic love story. And there's this poem about them. I pass by these walls, the walls of Leila. I'm going to tear up. It's such a beautiful poem. But I pass by these walls, the walls of Leila, and I kiss this wall and that wall. Sorry.

I don't know if this answers your question, but there's this poem about Leila and Majnun. I don't know if you've heard it before, but it's like this classic love story. And there's this poem about them. I pass by these walls, the walls of Leila. I'm going to tear up. It's such a beautiful poem. But I pass by these walls, the walls of Leila, and I kiss this wall and that wall. Sorry.

It's not love of the walls that has taken my heart, but the person who dwells within them. So I think for me, it was loving the thing that Mahmoud loves.

It's not love of the walls that has taken my heart, but the person who dwells within them. So I think for me, it was loving the thing that Mahmoud loves.