Sarah Cavanaugh
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I don't think it's ever going to be easy to think about the people I hurt. And because these are people that even before they knew I hurt them, right, I was hurting them, right, because I was lying to them.
I don't think it's ever going to be easy to think about the people I hurt. And because these are people that even before they knew I hurt them, right, I was hurting them, right, because I was lying to them.
I lost a ton of weight. I began to drink extremely heavily. And I kind of lost interest in most other things. I began to just kind of go through the motions of these lies. Okay, just keep going. Something's going to happen. It will end.
I lost a ton of weight. I began to drink extremely heavily. And I kind of lost interest in most other things. I began to just kind of go through the motions of these lies. Okay, just keep going. Something's going to happen. It will end.
When they came to search my house... I had been like taking some pills to sleep or calm down because I would get up during the night and I would walk around the house and check the windows. And this wasn't because I thought they were coming to search my house or anything. I had no idea about the investigation.
When they came to search my house... I had been like taking some pills to sleep or calm down because I would get up during the night and I would walk around the house and check the windows. And this wasn't because I thought they were coming to search my house or anything. I had no idea about the investigation.
But it was just this sense of like knowing I was lying and the paranoia that comes from that.
But it was just this sense of like knowing I was lying and the paranoia that comes from that.
I was so afraid, right? I was so, so afraid. Not because I thought it was illegal, not because I'm thinking I'm going to go to prison, but because I'm like, they are not going to be my friends anymore. I'm not going to have these people in my life.
I was so afraid, right? I was so, so afraid. Not because I thought it was illegal, not because I'm thinking I'm going to go to prison, but because I'm like, they are not going to be my friends anymore. I'm not going to have these people in my life.
I had to sit outside on the fender of the car in the garage, and there were two officers standing on either side of me. And they were, I think, playing good cops, so to speak, right? And there was this man and he was like an IT guy. He was thin. He had glasses, kind of like a boyish haircut. And he wasn't like as intense as the other agents. And he had a gun on his holster.
I had to sit outside on the fender of the car in the garage, and there were two officers standing on either side of me. And they were, I think, playing good cops, so to speak, right? And there was this man and he was like an IT guy. He was thin. He had glasses, kind of like a boyish haircut. And he wasn't like as intense as the other agents. And he had a gun on his holster.
And I was like, I could probably get to him fast enough that the other man on the other side will shoot me. And I remember like even when they were in my house, that thought consuming me, not even thinking about like that they're searching my house and that this is now a criminal investigation, right? Just thinking about like letting it end, letting it be over.
And I was like, I could probably get to him fast enough that the other man on the other side will shoot me. And I remember like even when they were in my house, that thought consuming me, not even thinking about like that they're searching my house and that this is now a criminal investigation, right? Just thinking about like letting it end, letting it be over.
When you live two separate lives for so long, it feels normal, right? I had to be someone else in front of other people when I was young and when I was a child. And that was normal.
When you live two separate lives for so long, it feels normal, right? I had to be someone else in front of other people when I was young and when I was a child. And that was normal.
Come on. Push it, Liam, push.
Come on. Push it, Liam, push.
I'm Sarah Cavanaugh, and I'm originally from Rhode Island. I can see where in some ways it can fit this aspect of like this huge plan to get all this money, like this master plan or something. But I never thought about it like that.
I'm Sarah Cavanaugh, and I'm originally from Rhode Island. I can see where in some ways it can fit this aspect of like this huge plan to get all this money, like this master plan or something. But I never thought about it like that.