Sarah Jaffe

And I was like, oh, and also like I was trying to find things to read because I'm a nerd and I wanted to get an A in grieving the way I want to get an A in everything.

And so I was looking for like, what do I read?

What do I study?

What do I whatever?

And like nothing, nothing really captured what I was feeling.

And so I on some level, I wrote the book that I needed to read.

And also, you know, the way I deal with everything is to write about it.

And this one has been harder to metabolize than most.

It's been hard to talk about.

Doing press for this book has been rough.

It's been challenging to return to those feelings over and over again, you know.

But they returned for me anyway.

You know, we just passed the anniversary of my father's death.

And so, like, that month...

I know it's coming for me.

But it also comes for me at other moments.

It comes for me in moments that I won't even know what's going on.

And then I'm like, oh, it's just, okay, that's what's happening.

That's there.

And that sense that it's not just an easy thing to get over.