Sarah Kanowski

and I've suffered anxiety in certain relationships in the past, and around about then the anxiety started to kick in as well.

Yes, exactly.

That excitement butterflies in your stomach can be similar to anxiety.

Yes, exactly.

And so it was very hard to pull apart the emotions and to know what was anxiety and what was Farlskets and what was madness and what was what.

And other emotions as the relationship wore on came into play as well, and I still have no idea how I can unpick those emotions and...

Go, well, that was that and that was that.

It's probably impossible.

Oh, yeah, of course.

And I made sure I don't normally carry a lot of cash with me.

I'm hopeless.

I just use my credit card.

But this particular weekend, I made sure I had hundreds of dollars of cash with me.

Because I always like to pay my own way.

And I was ready if I needed to flee this country cottage he'd booked.

I'd checked where the nearest motel was.

And I had cash ready to hand over to him to say, listen, I'm going to go.

This isn't working.

And I really want to pay my share of the weekend, which turned out not to be necessary.

Well, how did the weekend go?