Sarah Koenig

From Anand's letter, quote, that's all I heard him say, and I turned and just stared at him, wanting to hit him with a chair or something.

I mean, this jerk is going to get up and give away the only thing I have, my innocence, unquote.

When it's Adnan's turn to speak, he suddenly realizes he has no idea what to say.

He'd had his plan, but now, quote, on the other hand, I'm thinking about what the lawyer said about the judge getting upset.

On the third hand, I'm thinking, man, I should just apologize for everything, even though I didn't kill Hay.

Stupid me, I end up doing a little of each, unquote.

It's true.

When his moment comes, he maintains his innocence.

He asks for the mercy of the court, and he says, quote, I'm just sorry for all the pain that this has caused everyone.

The judge, Wanda Hurd, disagreed with Adnan's attorney at sentencing.

We know this because she said, quote, She said to Adnan, you planned it.

Quote,

You used that to manipulate people.

And even today, I think you continue to manipulate even those that love you, as you did to the victim.

You manipulated her to go with you to her death.

Once, early on, I asked Adnan, if you're saying you're innocent, why aren't you bitter and angry?

Why do you sound so calm?

And he said a lot of things, then and since, because there's no one answer.

Part of it, he says, is that he realizes how lucky he is compared to so many other guys inside.

His family visits, he calls them all the time, they send him money.