Sarah

Possibly that could be.

And I, you know, since it happened the first time, I'm definitely on high alert for it.

So I, I go looking for it more, which probably isn't healthy either.

Um, but I mean, the thing is, and this is going to sound so contradictory, but he is a really great guy and all the aspects that,

Yeah.

I think it was more being left out of their world.

So trying to stay in it.

My mom had me when she was really young and my dad, I don't know my biological dad, but my dad, my stepdad that stepped in, he was also young and they did the best they could, but it was really rocky for a really long time.

And so now that I feel like I have a good relationship built with them, I'm really scared to lose it.

Right.

Yeah.

And that's something else I was wondering, like, do I even need to tell them?

But I just feel so alone in this.

Yeah.

Um...

I, so the one girlfriend that I thought I did have, um, I started telling her about it and she is actually having an affair on her husband.

Um, so that kind of shut that down.

And that was hard.

Um, and then my other girlfriend, she's just in a season of life with little babies and she just doesn't.

She's just not in a season where she can give emotionally right now.