Sarah

And he was the first person that really took an interest for who I actually was and not how I made them feel.

And we have built a life together.

We travel.

We have fun.

Like, I have...

the best times with him when I can put those things out of my head.

And we built a business together.

I, I wanted, I had a dream of this business and he basically put his blood, sweat and tears in it to make sure that it came true.

And so it's just, it's really hard to reconcile like why he would do these things.

And it just, it automatically makes me think that I'm not enough.

Yeah.

And I mean, I listen to your show a lot and I've told him, you know, just recently, you know, behavior is a pattern and I can't accept patterns.

I can accept a mistake that you make and we move on from it and it never happens again.

But now this is clearly a pattern.

And is this how it's going to be for the rest of our lives?

He always says it's not going to happen again.

Yeah.

His answer to this is white knuckling and putting his head into work and not thinking about it.

It's all stuff that I needed to hear.

I know it in myself, but also it's really hard to just put it down and not look at it for a little bit.