Sari Solden

This is Sari Solden.

This is Sari Solden.

I mean, so like for the 30 years, I like spoke everywhere constantly and I became a really great keynote speaker. And this is a famous speech I did.

I mean, so like for the 30 years, I like spoke everywhere constantly and I became a really great keynote speaker. And this is a famous speech I did.

I moved to the farm and we had sheep. And here's one of my sheep. You'll see what he looks like. So this is about shame. So we moved out to the country because I thought, oh, if I live out there, it doesn't matter. Nobody will worry about what my house looks like or anything like that.

I moved to the farm and we had sheep. And here's one of my sheep. You'll see what he looks like. So this is about shame. So we moved out to the country because I thought, oh, if I live out there, it doesn't matter. Nobody will worry about what my house looks like or anything like that.

And then on the way home from work every day, I would pass in these beautiful pastoral scenes and there's all these beautiful sheep and I got home and then I looked at my sheep and I kept getting depressed and I realized my sheep were messy. And then I felt bad every time I realized what I had was sheep shame. So I realized, so it didn't matter like what the context was.

And then on the way home from work every day, I would pass in these beautiful pastoral scenes and there's all these beautiful sheep and I got home and then I looked at my sheep and I kept getting depressed and I realized my sheep were messy. And then I felt bad every time I realized what I had was sheep shame. So I realized, so it didn't matter like what the context was.

I had internalized that no matter what it was going to be, I was going to be embarrassed by it or feel shamed about it. I had sheep shame.

I had internalized that no matter what it was going to be, I was going to be embarrassed by it or feel shamed about it. I had sheep shame.

When I went there, everything sort of fell apart. I was messy, you know, and it caused a big problem. A lot of shame developed.

When I went there, everything sort of fell apart. I was messy, you know, and it caused a big problem. A lot of shame developed.

I worked at mental hospitals. I worked in the inner city, you know, with farm labor camps. I did a lot of things in those days. And then... I got married, then moved to California, and then I got unmarried.

I worked at mental hospitals. I worked in the inner city, you know, with farm labor camps. I did a lot of things in those days. And then... I got married, then moved to California, and then I got unmarried.

You'd have to move every hour, and I'd have to, like, stuff these clocks into a, drawer because I couldn't concentrate with the ticking. I put the fan on and closed the windows to block out that sound. And I was like hiding in shame from the administrative staff because I couldn't read my handwriting. And I wasn't talking at all in all these group settings. Nobody knew who I was.

You'd have to move every hour, and I'd have to, like, stuff these clocks into a, drawer because I couldn't concentrate with the ticking. I put the fan on and closed the windows to block out that sound. And I was like hiding in shame from the administrative staff because I couldn't read my handwriting. And I wasn't talking at all in all these group settings. Nobody knew who I was.

Part of the test was showing me nonsense looking creatures and you had to remember their names. So nonsense names. And I got like a 16th percentile. I couldn't remember the first time I've ever had a test score that was terrible. And they showed me like that means like I had a terrible short term memory, but I've been compensating with context.

Part of the test was showing me nonsense looking creatures and you had to remember their names. So nonsense names. And I got like a 16th percentile. I couldn't remember the first time I've ever had a test score that was terrible. And they showed me like that means like I had a terrible short term memory, but I've been compensating with context.

And when there's no context, I didn't know how to do this. So I said, OK, that's interesting.

And when there's no context, I didn't know how to do this. So I said, OK, that's interesting.