Savannah Guthrie

You know, she's with God.

Yeah, I do imagine her.

She used to say that she imagined that when you passed away, that on your first night in heaven, God would take you on a tour just for you.

and show you the universe.

This is how I made this.

And this is how I made that.

And she really loved that thought because she was so curious, you know, she's, she's such a journalist, you know, she, she of course was, got her master's in journalism and was going to be a newspaper reporter when she was young, but then met my dad and they had a family and,

And I remember my mom saying in those early days when daddy died, like, you have to get up and decide and do.

Just decide and do.

She had read that in a book that meant a lot to her and her grief.

And so I remember, I always remember that.

So I'm trying to decide and do.

She showed us how to survive the unimaginable.

When she lost my dad, she was 46 years old.

She had three kids.

She had never worked outside the home.

She had to get up.

She had to find a job.

She had to mother two teenagers and one young adult just starting making his way into the world.

I remember moments in my childhood and those days after my dad died.