Sean Langan

I hadn't thought of for a while, but I remember seeing a female friend's face lit up by candle.

Months after my release, this woman said to me, I said, oh, it's weird.

I was thinking about you.

She goes, oh, when I was at Lourdes in France with that shrine, that holy shrine where people go to pray.

She goes, I lit a candle for you.

And that came up quite a lot where I was thinking of someone who was thinking of me because they knew I'd been kidnapped.

So I've never, contrary, counterintuitively, but it makes sense for anyone who's gone through it, in that moment of darkness and captivity and waiting to be beheaded, I've never felt so alive and so in love with life and my loved ones and so connected that

It's strange.

So I knew, so my fixer was being, at the beginning we were listening.

Why aren't we in the news?

I mean, you know, it was newsworthy, Western Journal's kidnap.

And it was driving us nuts, because it was a fear.

It wasn't you want to be on the news.

No, it's a fear that no one's talking about.

It was a fear that no one knew we were kidnapped, and so wouldn't even be looking for us.

There's something now, they call it a news blackout.

In the 1960s, 70s, 80s, kidnappers was always on the news.

Slowly, they've realized in the West,

That gives oxygen.

Kidnappers, terrorist movements around the world want that.