Shadoe Stevens

And the more you find these things that you believe in, the greater your ability to turn your will and your life over to the care of this something that you can't begin to comprehend. But when you meditate, it's the confirmation of all of those words and ideas. When you have the experience of going within, of transcendental consciousness, it affects everything.

And the more you find these things that you believe in, the greater your ability to turn your will and your life over to the care of this something that you can't begin to comprehend. But when you meditate, it's the confirmation of all of those words and ideas. When you have the experience of going within, of transcendental consciousness, it affects everything.

It opens up living in possibilities. It gives you ultimate hope. It gives you an idea of an infinitely perfect universe beyond the physical universe. So that was graduate school.

It opens up living in possibilities. It gives you ultimate hope. It gives you an idea of an infinitely perfect universe beyond the physical universe. So that was graduate school.

It opens up living in possibilities. It gives you ultimate hope. It gives you an idea of an infinitely perfect universe beyond the physical universe. So that was graduate school.

It's self-care. It's not wanting to suffer. What? It's not wanting to suffer. Yeah. I don't want to suffer. I'm not going to go out. I got sober with a guy once. that was young, handsome, articulate, had his own business. Great. He owned a flower shop and we saw him at meetings all the time and stopped seeing him. And one day I was walking down Melrose and this carcass started walking toward me.

It's self-care. It's not wanting to suffer. What? It's not wanting to suffer. Yeah. I don't want to suffer. I'm not going to go out. I got sober with a guy once. that was young, handsome, articulate, had his own business. Great. He owned a flower shop and we saw him at meetings all the time and stopped seeing him. And one day I was walking down Melrose and this carcass started walking toward me.

It's self-care. It's not wanting to suffer. What? It's not wanting to suffer. Yeah. I don't want to suffer. I'm not going to go out. I got sober with a guy once. that was young, handsome, articulate, had his own business. Great. He owned a flower shop and we saw him at meetings all the time and stopped seeing him. And one day I was walking down Melrose and this carcass started walking toward me.

A carcass? Yeah, a carcass. And as it got closer, I realized it was my friend. And I went, uh, hey, how are you doing? And he said, you know, well, you know, I got it. You know, I went to these meetings all the time and it was like, oh, you just don't drink or use no matter what.

A carcass? Yeah, a carcass. And as it got closer, I realized it was my friend. And I went, uh, hey, how are you doing? And he said, you know, well, you know, I got it. You know, I went to these meetings all the time and it was like, oh, you just don't drink or use no matter what.

A carcass? Yeah, a carcass. And as it got closer, I realized it was my friend. And I went, uh, hey, how are you doing? And he said, you know, well, you know, I got it. You know, I went to these meetings all the time and it was like, oh, you just don't drink or use no matter what.

So, you know, I didn't see the reason to go to meetings anymore because, you know, they were kind of boring and, and, um, And I was going to church, and I went to communion. And part of it was just a little shot of wine. And I had it, and nothing happened. nothing happened. I'm good. So a couple of weeks later, a friend of mine was being promoted at a law firm and everybody's having shots.

So, you know, I didn't see the reason to go to meetings anymore because, you know, they were kind of boring and, and, um, And I was going to church, and I went to communion. And part of it was just a little shot of wine. And I had it, and nothing happened. nothing happened. I'm good. So a couple of weeks later, a friend of mine was being promoted at a law firm and everybody's having shots.

So, you know, I didn't see the reason to go to meetings anymore because, you know, they were kind of boring and, and, um, And I was going to church, and I went to communion. And part of it was just a little shot of wine. And I had it, and nothing happened. nothing happened. I'm good. So a couple of weeks later, a friend of mine was being promoted at a law firm and everybody's having shots.

So I had one shot and nothing happened. I was good. A couple of weeks later, there was another one and other shots. I had a couple of shots and then pretty soon I started drinking again. And then pretty soon I was drinking, you know, pretty much all the time, but I needed a lift. So I started doing a little cocaine and then, you know, I, uh,

So I had one shot and nothing happened. I was good. A couple of weeks later, there was another one and other shots. I had a couple of shots and then pretty soon I started drinking again. And then pretty soon I was drinking, you know, pretty much all the time, but I needed a lift. So I started doing a little cocaine and then, you know, I, uh,

So I had one shot and nothing happened. I was good. A couple of weeks later, there was another one and other shots. I had a couple of shots and then pretty soon I started drinking again. And then pretty soon I was drinking, you know, pretty much all the time, but I needed a lift. So I started doing a little cocaine and then, you know, I, uh,

Well, you know, snorting it wasn't good enough, and I started smoking it. So he says, yeah, so then I started shooting it. And then I was drinking so much that I got gout. And my ankles were swollen purple and black. And my best thinking was to shoot the cocaine into the gout. That's a bad idea. No, I would have that idea. It's funny and horrifying. And he died a few weeks later. Okay.

Well, you know, snorting it wasn't good enough, and I started smoking it. So he says, yeah, so then I started shooting it. And then I was drinking so much that I got gout. And my ankles were swollen purple and black. And my best thinking was to shoot the cocaine into the gout. That's a bad idea. No, I would have that idea. It's funny and horrifying. And he died a few weeks later. Okay.

Well, you know, snorting it wasn't good enough, and I started smoking it. So he says, yeah, so then I started shooting it. And then I was drinking so much that I got gout. And my ankles were swollen purple and black. And my best thinking was to shoot the cocaine into the gout. That's a bad idea. No, I would have that idea. It's funny and horrifying. And he died a few weeks later. Okay.