Shawn Ryan

And I'm like, yeah, I'm going to go with it.

And it's like completely not.

You got to hide that at least when you're actually trying to get by in the field.

So very much a wrong reason to go into the field.

I'm still in it.

No, but I still think the thing, it's for that bigger picture goal.

So I think the thing that grabbed my attention is more,

You know, I liked my math and science courses in school.

I think that maybe in hindsight, looking back, just the notion of being computing something draws your attention in in a way where then once you're in it, you're in it, you're hooked.

And that's good for my job mechanically in the sense that like our job is to compute things.

But I do think that I was still more excited by the bigger picture view or this notion of the possibilities of what physics could do than in practice what it is in the same sense that like, you know,

someone working at Google isn't necessarily actually gets to think about search.

They're doing one specific little widget or something, you know, type of thing.

But, yeah.

Oh, so from high school, we go to being a little bit too cocky and being like MIT for aerospace, Harvard for physics, and then not getting in because you wrote too many poems or didn't really like... I think that one thing about the admissions to these schools, I mean, it's so much luck.

So that's a bit sad.

I think that grad admissions is fairer because you're already kind of differentiated in your skill set and the people admitting you are the people who care about the field that you're going into.

But I think I thought like...

all these other kids are taking the AP courses.

They're checking off all these boxes for their extracurriculars.