Simone Giertz

Like I wanted there to just be like, no, this is the only option.

This is what we need to do.

And if I started questioning that, then I don't know if I would have been able to go through with it.

So yeah, it was a strange, I just really wanted to trust the doctors that I worked with.

And I was very scared to question them in any way.

Yeah, I think it took away a part of youth for me.

Yeah.

I mean, you kind of think of terrible things as something that happens to other people and death and illness.

So I think it kind of fast-tracked that for me.

But it mostly changed my relationship to life.

It changed... It's made me so much more gentle with myself.

Like, going through illness...

It forces you to redefine what it means to be good.

And before, being good had been pushing myself really hard.

It had been working and...

I don't know, just being really hard with myself and disciplined.

And when you're healing from something, being good is listening to your body.

It's resting.

It's like really being in tuned with what your health, where your health is at.

And I think that is something that's kind of stuck with me since then.