Soleil

I didn't really have a handle on what love really looked like.

I kind of thought love was attention, and he gave me a lot of attention.

So—

I got wrapped up in that.

And so then, like, when things were bad, like, when we would have these terrible fights and he would get really upset about things or get really jealous, like, out of nowhere, you know, I just thought that was... I just thought that was, like, part of being in a relationship.

And that's, like, something, too, that I've learned from other people who are in, like, emotionally or physically abusive relationships is that, like, you get this delusion, kind of, that...

It's love isn't like real unless you have been through something together.

But that's not love.

That's a trauma bond.

But I didn't know that at the time.

We just got deeper and deeper into our relationship.

Then we got engaged in 2014.

After we got married, things went downhill pretty quickly.

The only reason that, you know, this is the only person that you're not going to hear from is because this is a person who endangered my life and is a danger to people around me.

You know, after I left him, I literally spent like

a few months hiding because I thought he might come kill me.

And so I'm just, I'm not really trying to involve that person in my life or anything I do anymore.

He lives across the country and I hope it stays that way.

So August of 2023, me and a bunch of friends had watched the Perseid meteor shower together.

And that was on like August 12th or 11th.