Stephanie Soo

Again, the false memory syndrome foundation makes it seem like you have this vague memory that comes up in a hypnosis session and then you make it your life's mission and you're like, ah, this is my new life.

This is my new whole personality.

But most people who have repressed memories come back up.

They spend years believing it's not true.

They spent years doubting it.

They spent years trying to find reasons why it's not true to confirm that this is a false memory, but it's not confirmed.

Nobody wants to be traumatized.

Nobody wants these things to have happened.

And oftentimes, therapists won't even believe you.

One netizen writes online, "'I don't know if I've suffered from childhood essay.'"

But I was reading the book The Body Keeps the Score recently and then I got to the section where he talked about Julian being assaulted by that priest and I immediately had a memory resurface of taking a shower with my mom when I was a child and I remember being incredibly upset about something and hating the stinging of water in my face.

I remember her naked body in front of me being eye level with her privates.

I had this very strong feeling of wanting to get out, but I just knew that if I got water on the floor, I knew I would get yelled at or beaten.

I don't know what this means.

I don't know if she did something to me or had me do something to her, but that particular section of the book triggered this random memory, which I completely buried.

I brought it up with my therapist, outlining that I've always had an irrational fear of women's private parts.

They make me so uncomfortable and I never knew why, but he glossed over it and moved on instead to focusing on my marriage issues.

Mary says,

I decided to use hypnosis as a way to regain memories.

And I taped the hypnosis sessions.