Susan Burton

And as Vanessa says, she feels everything.

She feels way too much.

For some reason, her husband is outside the OR.

He's not in the surgery from the very beginning.

And once he comes in, what he sees, he sees Vanessa strapped to the table and she's screaming and crying.

So Vanessa's husband, he comes to her side and she says, talk to me.

And part of the reason she's asked him to talk to her, it's to distract her from the pain, but it's also because this is a teaching hospital, and she can overhear the obstetrician teaching the resident.

She hears him say, I'm cutting through fascia.

Right, so just imagine this, right?

You're lying open on an operating table, and...

You feel what's going on and you hear somebody describing what they're doing to your insides.

Like it's frightening.

It's scary.

Finally, the baby is born.

Vanessa is relieved.

Vanessa is relieved the baby is healthy.

She's relieved it's over and that she does get a lot of drugs.

But then, you know, what happens is she's out of it.

She's high.

She doesn't have that moment of elation or joy that you want to have when your baby is born.