Tahlia Isaac

But, you know, other people can use here and there and it doesn't make their life spiral out of control.

There could be an argument made that eventually it will spiral out of control because often what you're doing is trying to medicate or numb something or make yourself feel better in some way.

But it's about the timeline.

I think the timeline is always different.

Many times.

And I would fold it all down and move back to my parents and try, you know, I'd try and get clean.

It was also back in the days before we kind of had this understanding about like, you know, your regulation of your nervous system or like talking about things or what the impacts of

of experiences on the way that you show up in the world.

Like we didn't have that language back then.

I certainly didn't.

And I had absolutely no inkling of it in the world around me.

So I would go back to my parents.

I would just try and stay off drugs.

I would get a job, some shitty job that I fucking hated.

You know, it'd last, sometimes it'd last two weeks before I went, I hate this.

I'm not doing this.

I'm going back to that.

And then other times it'd be like a month or two.

Yeah.

And I just never could never get it together because I didn't have the skills to know, okay, my nervous system doesn't feel like I'm safe because there's no chaos.