Tora
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105 appearances
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first heard Jan 2025
last heard Jan 2025
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And the whole time I'm doing chest compressions, I'm like, he's cold. He's gone. This man is not alive. The whole time in the background, the boy is just screaming my name out.
He loved us a little prince and we started saying, you know, daddy went to hang out in the stars with the little prince and the fox.
We all went up and sat with Aaron and I sat down and I told him, I will miss you every day for the rest of my life. And then he was gone.
About 10 o'clock, a knock on my door, and the boy's mom showed up and insisted on sitting down and talking to me. I don't know this person at all other than the reputation that I have been very carefully spoon-fed for three years, which is that she is awful and a horrible person.
And she came in like a blast of cold air, sat down in my living room, and said, if you want to be in my son's life, there's some things you need to know. First of all, Aaron's not Choctaw. Aaron's Black. And I kind of laughed at her. I'm like, okay lady, like really, we're gonna do this right now?
It was Aaron's mom and Aaron's brother, who is very much a black man. They came in, they sat down in my living room, and I told them about me and my life with Aaron, how long we'd been together. And she said, he wasn't a good person. And I thought, well, that's a really weird thing to say to a grieving widow.
I gave it a lot of thought, and I called my family on a Zoom call, and I said, okay, I'm going to vacate the house. I don't own it. The name's not on it. I don't have any right to it. And my friend, the lawyer said, take what's yours, what you bought together and nothing else.
I reached down and I picked him up and I held him really close and I said, never forget I love you and I'm your ama and that will never change. And she fell out of the road, drove away, and I never saw him again.
I fell apart. I wasn't getting out of bed. I wasn't taking care of myself. I wasn't eating. I was a disaster.
When I got his autopsy, it was very much an overdose. He had on double the dose, and he had taken double the dose of oxycodone at the same time to go to bed.
On his autopsy, it said he had a brace on his leg. It said brace on his left leg. And I thought, well, that's a really weird way to say prosthetic. And that was the last I thought of it.
I stayed very much in grieving widow mode for two months. And it wasn't until after the second month that I opened my eyes finally. So I just let a lot of this stuff slide and thought like, either I'll deal with it later or it's not true or it's a misunderstanding. And then after two months, I opened his computer and everything changed instantly.
So I opened the computer, got right in on the first try, knew the password. And I opened his pictures and I started looking through and there were some screenshots in there that sent me to his text messages. All of his text messages are on his computer. And immediately, within 20 seconds, I realized that he was in a relationship with somebody long distance.
I spent an hour combing through their text messages, which were graphic and filthy. And the worst part of all of it, there were two things that were just devastating. The first was that the things he said to her while they were having this like fantasy relationship is the same stuff he would say to me when we were intimate verbatim.
And he would tell her, well, I have time and I won't have the boy on these dates because I was going to be gone for a conference on those dates. So that was a lot to realize, like he was manipulating her and me to keep us both on the hook back and forth. But then the worst thing I found in everything I found was him saying, nobody has ever loved me. Nobody, except for you.
And that is the biggest lie he ever told. And just the most infuriating lie devastating, cruel thing he could have said was that nobody had ever loved him. And here I had just spent eight weeks bottomed out, devastated, flatlined because this man had died. And I had given him everything.
and found more women. He was texting four other girls, couple from Tinder, couple from school. One of my favorites was a girl he had been in school with who had been to our house and knew me. And they were talking about how she could move in and her teenager could live in the basement bedroom. It's a three bedroom house. And his son lives in one of those bedrooms.
So presumably I'm not living there as she's moving in. So that was like, what the heck is he just going to kick me out? Like, this is recent.
And he was saying, well, you know, I don't ever have anything going on on Tuesday nights. We could come over for dinner. We could watch a movie. But then I have to go to bed around 10 because I was teaching. I was at class 7 to 10 on Tuesdays. So he knew I would stay at work and go to class. So that was like. I guess kind of opening that box of like, okay, so he's been doing stuff behind my back.
I don't know what. I still don't. I don't need to. It doesn't matter. He offered it.
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