Wendy K. Laidlaw

As a former professional businesswoman who had her own successful property business for over 20 years, it was hard when my body became sick and ill with endometriosis.

In the toxic masculine world, the idea of even appearing to succumb to a period of pain as a woman, I feared, made me feel weak.

And weakness in a man's world is viewed as a fate worse than death.

I would say to myself, I just needed to be stronger.

I just needed to be tougher.

Or I just had to grin and bear it.

Or just had to take enough painkillers to get through that hour, that morning, that day.

I'd come to accept that my regular pelvic pain was, in vertical commas, normal.

That pain was just the normal process of being a woman.

That somehow that was just who I was.

And, you know, on the really bad days all those years ago, I would wonder if I'd done something so utterly terrible in a former life that I was paying for it now.

never occurred to me in a million years at the time that my environment was the cause of all my pain and suffering and faulty immune system particularly five elements within the frame within the environment which are what i call now the five p's are the framework of poisons produce products property people and past we all have these incredible protective emotional and psychological mechanisms designed to protect ourselves from pain

Our brain has adapted over millions and millions of years.

The oldest part of our brain, often called the reptilian part, the oldest part of the brain is purely focused on basic survival and background operation functions of the body.

Think about the heart pumping on its own and the intestines all working by themselves, amongst many other elements.

But if you grew up in a household that was under great chronic long term stress, strain and suffering, then even as a newly born baby or a young infant, your highly acute sensory systems would have been activated at the mere sense of it.

Our bodies are amazing, which I've said many, many times before, and I fully appreciate it for all its glory and protective systems.

So if this newborn baby or infant before the age of five years old had

been upset or unsettled or had upheaval, then its body would have had to adapt to the environment.

For example, if a baby's mother was crying or distressed or anxious or upset regularly for over a long period of time and the baby wasn't given the holding, the comforting and the attention it needed, then the neural pathways that start to be formed are ones of, it's not safe, I'm not safe, life is not safe.