Zadie Smith

I broke my right leg.

very very badly like the whole femur smashed in half and I had all kinds of smaller fractures and I mean it's still a thing like I people tell me I limp when it gets cold and it certainly gives me pain sometimes were you depressed enough at that time that people had reason to suspect that it was suicide yeah yeah I was very um very melancholy and um

Quite isolated, I guess.

I read a lot.

I stayed at home a lot.

I smoked too much weed, which can make you very depressed.

I think I have my melancholies.

That's a permanent part of my way of being.

So you get used to it.

I find writing pretty cathartic.

I don't say it ends melancholy or depression, but it does articulate things that otherwise would just kind of sit there and bother me.

So it's a way of...

of getting things out that I do find quite helpful.

But the melancholy is not going anywhere at this point.

This is part of me.

And life is melancholy.

It would be strange not to feel melancholy about it.

There's a lot of sadness.

Thank you.

And thanks.