Zoe Holohan

Really, media was my world when I was younger.

I worked in a very high pressured industry where you had to be an Oscar winning actress or actor and never show weakness and never show pressure or burnout and continually put that smiling face forward.

I'm sure not the only person that felt like they have to do that in the corporate world.

But in the quiet times, I was seeking out therapy and I really badly needed help to cope with some of those high pressure times.

Back then, I told nobody, not even my closest friends, that I was struggling.

When I was with Brian, certainly we could talk about those things.

But that was a later stage when I pretty much got, if you want to put it this way, my mental health act together.

In my 20s, 30s and 40s, I would have had spells of depression, anxiety, and I definitely suffered from panic attacks in my 40s.

So I guess you might say that working through those, either in the guise of therapy or just sheer peddling through them, probably helped create some inner strength in me.

I would also say, much to the irritation of a lot of my friends, I'm extraordinarily stubborn by nature.

But I actually, I deem that an advantage because I don't give up very easily.

It was extraordinarily hot.

We were looking at our phones, we were checking the temperature and I believe it had got up to 40 by noon, 40 degrees.

It was exceptionally hot.

We'd jump in the pool to cool off and then no sooner that you're out again, you'd be exhausted by the heat.

After that, we did the nerdy thing of changing our Facebook status to married.

We were like a pair of teenagers on a countdown, three, two, one.

We giggled about it.

And then the heat just got too much.

This would have been just around lunchtime.