Am I Broken: Survivor Stories
Activity Overview
Episode publication activity over the past year
Episodes
S4 Ep2 - Claire "I Ignored It and I Believed Him Because He's the Storyteller [Neil Gaiman]"
28 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Claire (she/her) uses a pseudonym to share her story about being groomed and sexually coerced and manipulated by world-renowned author Neil Gaiman. We...
S4 Ep1 Lindsey - "I Remember Thinking I'm Selling My Soul to the Devil"
19 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Lindsey (she/her) tells her story about being groomed, taken advantage of, and sexually violated by a leader in Canada's psychedelic healing worl...
S3 Ep8 Kat - "I Certainly Lost Faith in People"
02 May 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Kat (she/her) shares her story of sexual violation during 4 days of a psychedelic therapy session with a well-known clinician. We discuss the healing ...
S3 Ep6 Hannah - "You're Gonna Have to Pay for This"
01 Mar 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Hannah (she/her) shares her stories of childhood sexual abuse from several local church leaders in her small town, including her grandfather. We talk ...
S3 Ep5 Pat - "This Person Held the Trust of So Many"
31 Jan 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Pat (they/them) shares a story long held secret, about their employer and colleague who offered to be their tantric teacher, then lied and manipulated...
S3 Ep4 Gabi - "This Has Happened Before"
03 Jan 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Gabi (she/they) calls out two local perpetrators - a friend and community leader who sexually assaulted her during a massage, and the CEO of a solar p...
S3 Ep3 Elle - "I Have This Connection With Her, And I'm Betraying Her"
01 Dec 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Elle (she/her) shares her story of a sudden betrayal by her eating disorder therapist, a sexualized violation during their last meeting. She describes...
S3 Ep2 Tom - "Didn't Make Space For Any of My Truth"
31 Oct 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Tom (he/him) shares his story of how childhood sexual abuse primed him to be sexually abused by his high school counselor, believing for years that th...
S3Ep1 Lee Anne - "But It Wasn't Over"
01 Oct 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Lee Anne (she/her) shares her story of being assaulted on a date with a firefighter. Being polyamorous was one more reason she was reluctant to file a...
S2 Ep12 Deborah - "I Didn't Know What I'd Done Wrong"
01 Jun 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Deborah, a Licensed Clinical Mental Health Counselor and Clinical Addictions Specialist, shares her story of coming to terms with several sexual assau...
S2Ep11 Kellie - "He Would Get This Certain Look In His Eyes"
01 May 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Kellie, a licensed clinical mental health counselor, tells her story of intimate partner sexual violence, including severe manipulation and control be...
S2Ep10 Rachael - "All of a Sudden It Came Tumbling Down"
01 Apr 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Rachael, an LCSW, shares her story of returning memories at age 38, of childhood sexual abuse by her father. She describes her healing journey, includ...
S2Ep9 Janitta - "We Are All in a World Full of Broken People"
01 Mar 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Janitta, a life coach, shares her story of being sexually abused as a child by various family members, and sexually assaulted and harassed as police o...
S2Ep8 Jamie - "I Thought I Had Caused All of It"
31 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Jamie, a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, and Certified Sex Therapist, shares her story of multiple incidents of child sexual abuse and rape as...
S2Ep7 Veronica - "Coercion Is Still Rape"
31 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Veronica, a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, describes being sexually coerced, manipulated, and assaulted during a long term relationship. She ...
S2Ep6 Mark - "Because I Didn't Have Power"
31 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
Mark, a licensed Associate Marriage and Family Therapist, describes being groomed for years by a teacher, and growing out of the abuse rather than end...
S2Ep5 Carey - "Someone Else Was Supposed To Protect Me"
01 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Carey, a Licensed Clinical Mental Health Counselor, shares her story of extensive childhood sexual abuse, amidst a chaotic family environment exacerba...
S2Ep4 Grey - "And Now Suddenly I Had Lost Control of My Own Story"
01 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Grey, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker, shares their story of childhood sexual violation by an older neighbor, and how they attempted to keep it a se...
S2Ep3 Eric - "I Didn't Have My Own Feelings"
01 Nov 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Eric, a Licensed Clinical Mental Health Counselor (and more, including addictions and sex therapy) shares his story of covert incest, and how he was c...
S2Ep2 Angela - "It Feels Like They're Grains of Sand"
01 Nov 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Angela, a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, shares her story of a whole spectrum of unwanted and abusive sexual experiences, including date rape...
S2Ep1 Poppy - "All That Rage Came Out of Tremendous Loneliness and Pain"
01 Oct 2020
Contributed by Lukas
As the host of Am I Broken, I share my own story of sexual abuse, fragments that I've recovered over the years, and how the trauma and the healin...
S1Ep17 Bonus Episode 3 - Mapping the Healing Path
03 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Papillon and Andrew discuss the Healing Path - what is it? What does healing look like, and what identifiable steps can it include?
S1Ep14 John - "By Trying to Protect Yourself So Much, You Actually Injure Yourself"
29 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
John shares his story of sexual abuse when he was five years old, by a teenage babysitter, and the secondary trauma of his parents refusing to support...
S1Ep13 Tomi - "It Felt Hopeless"
29 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Tomi shares his journey through flashbacks of incest perpetrated by his mother, and additional sexual abuse incidents outside the home. He describes h...
S1Ep16 Bonus Episode 2 - Mapping the Healing Path
22 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this bonus episode, licensed trauma therapists Papillon DeBoer and Andrew Barnett discuss their work with male survivors, focusing on working with ...
S1Ep15 Bonus Episode 1 - Mapping the Healing Path
11 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this season's bonus episodes, licensed therapists Papillon DeBoer and Andrew Barnett describe working with male survivors for Our Voice. This ...
S1Ep12 Taylor - "There Was Just This Open Wound That Wasn't Healed"
02 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Taylor shares his story of, from a young age, being not only sexually abused, but also verbally and emotionally abused, and gaslit, by an older siblin...
S1Ep11 George - "I Did Not Understand What He Was Doing"
02 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
George describes growing up in a large Catholic family, and being sexually abused by 3 different priests over the course of more than a decade. He sha...
S1Ep9 Larry - "My Body Isn't My Own"
01 Apr 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Larry describes being raped and stalked by his RA in Job Corps
S1Ep8 Ben - "I Did Not Have Any Memory Even Then"
01 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Ben describes piecing together details from his own behaviors and several mental breakdowns, resulting in a revelation that he had been drugged and se...
S1Ep7 Antanas - "It Was a Violent Transaction"
01 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Antanas describes a sexual assault in adolescence by his closest female friend, to whom he looked for protection from bullying.
S1Ep6 Stephen - "And I Believed What He Told Me"
30 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Stephen describes how he was molested as a child by a farmhand, who used the fact that Stephen was adopted to manipulate him. Stephen also shares the ...
S1Ep5 Mike - "It's Not Consent"
30 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Mike shares his story of multiple victimizations as a child and teenager, including one sexual assault by a priest.
S1Ep4 Matthew - "And He Was Like, That's Just Something We All Have to Go Through"
13 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Matthew describes the sudden recovery of a memory of childhood incest, and the effects it had on his life.
S1Ep3 Jamal - "I'm Not Imagining Something, I'm Actually Remembering"
13 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Jamal describes the arrival of fragmented childhood sexual abuse memories, first by a neighbor, and then by a stepfather.
S1Ep2 Brett - "All I Could See Was the Bad Things"
13 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Brett shares his story of childhood sexual abuse by a babysitter, which he kept secret until adulthood.
S1Ep1 Calvin - "Second Degree Sexual Assault on a Minor"
13 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Calvin describes his childhood sexual abuse by a mentor, who he learns also abused other boys. The case goes to court.