Food Addicts In Recovery Anonymous

123. A Journey of Becoming: From Colored Girl to Proud African American Woman

17 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

At 65 years old and 210 pounds, I saw a photo on social media and didn’t recognize myself. That moment of disbelief led me to Food Addicts in Recove...

122. Learning to Dream

03 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

I grew up surrounded by addiction, though my parents had found recovery early in my life. I was a relatively skinny child. Diagnosed with ADHD at five...

121. The Guardrails of Recovery

19 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

When I found Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA), my weight wasn’t my real problem – it was the complete madness I experienced around food. Fo...

120. Beyond the Bottle: Facing Food Addiction

05 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

From vodka at 13 to nightly binges of flour and sugar in adulthood, my life was ruled by addiction. At 23, weighed down by blame, insecurity, and sham...

119. 43 Years of No Longer Being Controlled by Food

15 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

The oldest of six children with parents who were overwhelmed, but tried hard, she found comfort in food from an early age. Despite being an average st...

118. The Real Magic

01 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

My earliest recollection is from the age of four – being shy and awkward, always afraid to join other kids at play. I was a picky eater and would ta...

117. Learning to Love and Respect Myself

17 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

From a young age, she learned that food could quiet her inner storms. As a teenager, desperate to control her weight, she experimented with appetite s...

116. She Stayed Until the Miracle Happened

06 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

From a young age, her life was doom and gloom. Food was her reprieve, protecting her from uncomfortable emotions. She endured sexual trauma as a young...

115. A Man’s 30-Year Battle with Bulimia

16 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

At 78, he’s lived through war, marriage, career highs—and a 30-year secret battle with bulimia. Although he was raised in a middle-class family wi...

114. Down on the Farm

02 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

I didn’t grow up on a farm, but when I married at 19 years old, that’s where life took me. My husband and I built our lives there, raising four da...

113. Sane and Happy

18 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

For as long as I can remember, I was either too much or not enough – too thin or too heavy. At 5’7”, I’ve been as low as 105 pounds and as hig...

112. From Binge to Balance

04 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

In 2013, weighing 193 pounds, I was caught in an endless cycle of gaining and losing the same 20 pounds despite exercising six hours daily. At my heav...

111. From Chaos to Recovery

21 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

At the age of 58, I am grateful to have been in recovery from food addiction for the last eighteen years. I came from a loving, yet dysfunctional fami...

110. Courage to Change

07 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

I was born two months early, weighing just 3.5 pounds, and from the start, life felt like an uphill climb. My mother couldn’t nurse me due to compli...

109. Food Felt Good, But It Didn’t Feel Right

16 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

From a young age, food was my escape—a source of comfort and control in a chaotic world. Growing up in public housing, with a dysfunctional family a...

108. Life is No Longer a Burden.mp3

02 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

She grew up in a loving family, but she often felt like an outsider because her family was thin and ate in moderation. Despite good grades boosting he...

107. Un despertar en FA

19 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

Una adicta a la comida codependiente comparte su experiencia, fortaleza y esperanza en la recuperación a través de Adictos a la Comida en Recuperaci...

106. Never Too Late to Find Freedom

05 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

I am 79 years old and have been in recovery for 16 years. At my heaviest, I reached 267 pounds. My journey with food addiction began in childhood when...

105. Taming the Beast Within

20 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

From an early age, she struggled with sneaking and bingeing on food. At just five years old, she went on her first real diet. Despite a structured foo...

104. Tomorrow Morning I Will Dance

29 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

I grew up in El Salvador during a time of economic hardship and civil war. My family immigrated to the U.S. when I was young, and my early years were ...

103. As Her Body Got Bigger, Her World Got Smaller

15 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

This story is about a woman who spent years chasing control, yet felt lost in her own life. Despite a loving upbringing, she struggled with feeling li...

101. 700 Pounds in my Lifetime

23 Oct 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I came to Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA) fifteen years ago weighing 211 pounds. Despite countless diets, fasts, and exercise routines, I coul...

100. Finding Safety in Recovery

02 Oct 2024

Contributed by Lukas

This food addict’s story was about fear, which led her to go to the food. It was a drug that made her feel safe. Although her family looked normal f...

099. From Fear to Freedom

18 Sep 2024

Contributed by Lukas

A food addict from New South Wales, Australia, I am the youngest of three who grew up with a strict, abusive father and a hardworking, protective moth...

098. Su única amiga era la comida

07 Sep 2024

Contributed by Lukas

Una joven adicta de los Estados Unidos con raíces en América Latina vivió con mucha inestabilidad en su juventud. Buscó consuelo en la comida y lo...

097. Extreme Eating

21 Aug 2024

Contributed by Lukas

For years, I blamed everyone for my struggles with weight and food addiction – my parents, my wife, and my job. After I joined Food Addicts in Recov...

096. Foxhole Prayers

07 Aug 2024

Contributed by Lukas

At a young age, I was completely focused on food and how to get it. Gaining weight by third grade, I went on my first diet – with my mom! By twelve,...

095. No Amount of Food Could Cure This Food Addict

17 Jul 2024

Contributed by Lukas

Despite growing up in a home full of love, this budding food addict was in a cycle of sneaking, hiding, and shoplifting food from as early as age six....

094. A Quitter Who Never Quit FA

03 Jul 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I am a 73-year-old Asian-American woman from New England and, I can promise you, I’ve quit almost everything I’ve started in my life except for th...

093. I Wanted To Be Invited, But I Didn’t Want To Go

19 Jun 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I grew up in a very diet-centric household; we were always on some kind of diet. At an early age, I started rebelling against the rigid household rule...

092. The Weight Off My Mind

05 Jun 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I was born and raised in Ireland. When I was 11, my family moved away from the big city to a rural area. Always in search of my identity, I thought th...

091. One Diagnosis After Another

15 May 2024

Contributed by Lukas

In first grade, I weighed 120 pounds, and by fifth grade, I had high triglycerides, high cholesterol, and a fatty liver. Never feeling like I fit in p...

090. Eating Against My Will

01 May 2024

Contributed by Lukas

A sneak eater and a speed eater from the jump, I literally made friends with kids based on what they had in their fridge and pantry. When I was around...

089. Finally Convinced

17 Apr 2024

Contributed by Lukas

My whole life was about dieting, restricting, and waiting to be thin. When I’m thin, then I’ll be happy, I thought. I was sure Food Addicts in Rec...

088. First Stop: Refrigerator

03 Apr 2024

Contributed by Lukas

Standing at the refrigerator looking for something—anything—to change the way I felt, I heard myself admit, “I do not know how to eat,” and I ...

087. Finding My Value and My Voice

20 Mar 2024

Contributed by Lukas

At the age of thirty and weighing 207 pounds, I was living a hopeless life. My existence was one of self-loathing, never feeling like I belonged. As a...

086. You Can Do This

06 Mar 2024

Contributed by Lukas

At nine years old, eating five meals a day and snacking in between, I thought I was ugly and I hated my body. In high school, at 217 pounds, my friend...

085. How I Got My Life Back

21 Feb 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I was just miserable. Ashamed. Desperate. Somehow, I had eaten my way to being 80 pounds overweight. What I could wear on a Friday wouldn’t fit by S...

084. A Miraculous Transformation

07 Feb 2024

Contributed by Lukas

Plagued by a lifetime of anxiety and repeated hospitalizations for depression, this transgender man took refuge in food. As his addiction progressed, ...

083. From Isolation to Collaboration

17 Jan 2024

Contributed by Lukas

I grew up a middle child in a single parent family, until my life changed at the age of five when I moved in with my aunt and uncle. I would eat every...

082. At 300 Pounds, Everything Hurt

03 Jan 2024

Contributed by Lukas

While putting food on the table and keeping the lights on were ongoing challenges at home, my family showed their love through large quantities of foo...

081. Made A Decision

20 Dec 2023

Contributed by Lukas

She did not have weight to lose, but knew she was in serious trouble with binge eating. Repeated trips to fast food and convenient stores looking for ...

080. Ninety Pound Pendulum

06 Dec 2023

Contributed by Lukas

I was an anxiety-ridden child. I was uncomfortable in my own skin and felt as if I just never fit in. Looking for relief, I made food my solution. I h...

079. Ticking Time-Bomb

15 Nov 2023

Contributed by Lukas

As a kid, I would eat everything that was put in front of me and then go back for seconds. But I was thin, so my weight wasn’t an issue. As I grew u...

078. The Secret is to Stay

02 Nov 2023

Contributed by Lukas

From my earliest memories, I was never satisfied. No matter how much I got, I wanted more. I felt like everyone else had life’s instruction manual, ...

077. An Abundance of Miracles

18 Oct 2023

Contributed by Lukas

I grew up an only child with two loving parents, but my expectations were so high I never believed anyone loved me enough. I was left with a deep empt...

076. I Can’t Go. I Have To Mow My Lawn.

04 Oct 2023

Contributed by Lukas

At 58 years of age, I argued that I didn’t really eat much, but you don’t get to be 300 pounds without eating. In reality, I was a fast food guy i...

075. Overcoming Survivor’s Guilt

20 Sep 2023

Contributed by Lukas

At 18 years old and 295 pounds, I was trapped in the downward spiral of food addiction. When I heard about Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA), I ...

074. I Found Hope

06 Sep 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Nineteen years old, 245 lbs., and completely out of control with food, I could not get it together to apply to colleges, get my driver’s license, or...

073. Always Running, Running, Running

02 Aug 2023

Contributed by Lukas

On the outside, she would light up a room with smiles and positive energy. A competitive athlete who also had a penchant for traveling the world, her ...

072. 10,000-Calorie Binges

02 Jul 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Fueled by willpower, high moral standards, and determination, I successfully controlled my weight for extended periods. However, by my early twenties,...

071. Put in the Cork, Picked Up the Fork

11 Jun 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Over time, she went from being a picky eater, to an under-eater, to an emotional eater, to a binge eater. After getting sober in another 12-step progr...

070. It’s About Gratitude, Y’all

02 Apr 2023

Contributed by Lukas

I’d heard about Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA), but at my first meeting, when I didn’t see anyone who looked like me, I assumed no one th...

069. If You Liked Me, I Liked You

26 Mar 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Battling the war with food and dieting for 20 years, this African-American woman was constantly looking for anything on the outside that could make he...

068. The Best Show on Earth

12 Feb 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Diabetes ran in this Black woman's family, so she understood that amputation, blindness, heart attack, and stroke were real dangers as long as she con...

067. Whatever Life Brings

05 Feb 2023

Contributed by Lukas

She was intensely driven by obsession with self and the perfect body. Dieting left her miserable, with the perennial question, “What do you do after...

066. Nunca Podía Ser Honesta

30 Jan 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Se pasó años buscando una solución a su sobrepeso, sin saber que era adicta a la comida. Repetía patrones familiares poco saludables. Su crecimien...

065. Big Body, Small Life

22 Jan 2023

Contributed by Lukas

At work, with a file cabinet packed with food, he created concoctions at his desk. After work, he hit the vending machines. Expensive diets, gadgets, ...

064. Life of the Party

15 Jan 2023

Contributed by Lukas

This chubby child transformed into a teen party girl in New York City, but cute clothes, college, boyfriends, and world travel did not solve her ...

063. Uncomfortably Numb

01 Jan 2023

Contributed by Lukas

Anxious, depressed, and tortured by uncontrollable, self-destructive eating, she went from cheerleader to punk rocker to looking for geographic cures....

062. The Disease Wants It All

25 Dec 2022

Contributed by Lukas

I didn’t care about stomach aches, dental cavities, skin breaking out – I just wanted to eat. But finally, with the help of Food Addicts in Recove...

061. Not Alone Anymore

18 Dec 2022

Contributed by Lukas

Always feeling she wasn’t enough, this food addict struggled, ate, covered up her eating, tried to exercise it off…and repeat. When she heard peop...

060. Clarity of Purpose

11 Dec 2022

Contributed by Lukas

He started raiding the kitchen at age six and by age eight was a lonely, emotional binge eater. Then, as a young Black man over 300 pounds, a room ful...

059. At 400 pounds…

20 Nov 2022

Contributed by Lukas

Her health was failing fast: asthma, diabetes, multiple medications, physical agony...not to mention depression, isolation, and shame. “Now I ride h...

057. From Fussing and Cussing to Staying and Praying

16 Oct 2022

Contributed by Lukas

Living a childhood of uncertainty, she constantly sought out food and the people who would give it to her. Nothing stopped her addiction until she got...

056. Today Is The Day

09 Oct 2022

Contributed by Lukas

Anxious, defensive, and suspicious of everyone, she self-medicated with food. And it worked. . . until it didn’t. When she said, today is the day, F...

055. Really, Really Tired of Being Obese

02 Oct 2022

Contributed by Lukas

From 3rd-grade gym class weigh-in humiliations to multiple serious adulthood health issues, she was afraid of what was coming next. At 22 years old an...

054. I’m Not That Bad

12 Sep 2022

Contributed by Lukas

A former chef with multiple addictions, this food addict hit bottom and found his solution in the tools of Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA) and...

052. Backroom at the Bakery

22 Aug 2022

Contributed by Lukas

This former bulimic was a “troubled youth” and lived years as a person she didn’t want to be. Today, honesty, gratitude, and loving relationship...

051. Home Sweet Home

08 Aug 2022

Contributed by Lukas

To avoid any kind of pain, this Australian spent many years and thousands of dollars trying to battle her active addiction. When she found Food Addict...

050. Couldn’t Live with It, Couldn’t Live without It

18 Jul 2022

Contributed by Lukas

Joining Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA) as a college student and deeply resistant to the program, she finally learned that she could put her ...

049. Twelve Years to Surrender

21 Jun 2021

Contributed by Lukas

Despite a history of relapse, she kept coming back and transported a solid recovery from Boston to many "hungry" food addicts in Florida. (Recorded in...

047. Tool Belt

22 Mar 2021

Contributed by Lukas

As an overweight athlete, she tried to convince herself that bigger was better. In recovery, she became right-sized, inside and out. (Recorded in 2004...

046. Just Leave Me Alone!

15 Mar 2021

Contributed by Lukas

This food addict isolated himself with his stash of food and the TV. In Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA) he found a way to engage with others ...

045. Never Too Late

18 Feb 2021

Contributed by Lukas

As a 1960's young wife on Long Island, she had trees, grass, and loneliness. After decades of yo-yo dieting, she found Food Addicts in Recovery Anonym...

044. Freedom From Obsession

05 Feb 2021

Contributed by Lukas

For years this Texas food addict tried to grow his thin body to feel secure in the world. In abstinence, he realized what he really needed to grow was...

043. Practice Being Satisfied

24 Jan 2021

Contributed by Lukas

For years she wanted what she didn’t have, and made bad decisions. After years of strong recovery in California, she now works the FA gold mine in c...

042. The Twelve Steps Saved My Life

15 Jan 2021

Contributed by Lukas

The miracle of recovery transformed this angry, abusive addict into a gentleman -- and the loving husband of a fellow traveler in FA. (Recorded in 200...

041. A Life Transformed

10 Jan 2021

Contributed by Lukas

As a teenage mother and addict, she lost her children when she went to prison. Now a great-grandmother, she has the love and respect of her friends, f...

040. The Fattest Nurse in the Army

13 Dec 2020

Contributed by Lukas

This musician and Army veteran was so angry she was afraid of hurting her kids. After joining FA she lost 100 pounds and a pile of resentments. (Recor...

038. Life Between Meals

22 Nov 2020

Contributed by Lukas

She could lose weight to get into the wedding dress, but before the honeymoon was over, the honeymoon was over (recorded in 1999).

037. Eating to Beat the Band

07 Nov 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Depressed, suicidal, and without hope, she felt like a fraud. At the brink of giving up, she came to FA, losing worry, fear, and 133 pounds. (Recorded...

036. Disease of More, More, More

19 Oct 2020

Contributed by Lukas

This expatriate kid felt rejected, lonely and too tall. Food, cigarettes and shopping didn't fill her gaping spiritual hole. God and FA did. (Recorded...

035. On Solid Ground

15 Sep 2020

Contributed by Lukas

She came in as a young mother over 200 pounds and clueless. She only knew she wanted a better life for her daughter. (Recorded in 1998)

034. Nothing Inside to Love

13 Sep 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Recovery taught this lawyer, wife, and mother that she didn't have to work hard to be lovable -- she just was. (Recorded in 2002)

033. Blackout Eating

12 Sep 2020

Contributed by Lukas

For years she was trapped in a vicious cycle of perfectionism, fear, isolation, and food. She found recovery and carried it with her to Florida, Texas...

032. Keeping It All Inside

30 Aug 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Diagnosed manic-depressive and suicidal in his forties, he later came to FA, joining his wife in recovery. (Recorded in 1998)

031. If I Could Just Be Thin

15 Aug 2020

Contributed by Lukas

A month-long fast, followed by a binge, put this world traveler in the emergency room. After seven years of struggling in FA she stopped hurting herse...

030. White-Knuckled Nightmare

07 Aug 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Coming back from relapse after 9 years of abstinence, she realized she had been "white-knuckling" it with no real faith. Now, facing two chronic illne...

029. Living to Look Cool

21 Jul 2020

Contributed by Lukas

She lived her life trying to be one of the beautiful, smart, popular people. The miracle happened when she admitted she needed help. (Recorded in 2004...

028. The Story Was In Her Eyes

11 Jul 2020

Contributed by Lukas

The Story Was in Her Eyes  When she was bingeing, she could pack on 20 pounds in 10 days. FA recovery freed her from brutal self-hatred and her fear ...

027. He Came to Lose Five Pounds and Found God

04 Jul 2020

Contributed by Lukas

This son of immigrants became trapped in a grinding corporate job and terrible night eating. Surrender was his way out. (Recorded in 2000)

026. Pass it On

27 Jun 2020

Contributed by Lukas

For years she used food to stuff all her feelings. Abstinent for 16 years, she knows the importance of giving back, filling herself up with gratitude ...

025. Self-Sabotaging Disaster

15 Jun 2020

Contributed by Lukas

His goal to "get thin, stay thin, and not get fat" eclipsed his other dreams. Now he has the life he always wanted, and a growing fellowship in Toront...

024. The Perfect Storm

13 Jun 2020

Contributed by Lukas

From the babysitter-binger to the maniac screamer, she surrendered to a clear program of recovery, giving her patience as a mother and inspiration a...

023. God Uses Everything For Good

06 Jun 2020

Contributed by Lukas

The love, structure, consistency and discipline of FA has carried this food addict through cancer and giving birth to a special needs child. Today, sh...

022. Lost Soul

31 May 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Fear of stuttering kept this young woman quiet. Her journey in recovery went far beyond her weight loss of twenty pounds to full acceptance of herself...

021. Beaten, Bloodied, and Desperate

15 May 2020

Contributed by Lukas

With a 61-inch waist and a myriad of ailments, he thought yoga was the answer. Recorded in 2011.

020. Finding a Solution

14 May 2020

Contributed by Lukas

This early member in California learned to weigh and measure her work as well as her food. Through FA service she came out of her isolation to show up...

019. Getting Nowhere

19 Apr 2020

Contributed by Lukas

Dieting since childhood, she tried to lose weight to please others. After decades of bingeing and fasting, and pursued by self-hatred and depression, ...