Girlscamp
Episodes
Ex-Mormon musings on Ballerina Farm
07 Aug 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Ballerina Farm, Hulu’s newly announced show “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives,” and my personal wrestle before God around womanhood are the inte...
Down the K-hole!
31 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
I’m doing ketamine treatment! And I’ve got a lot to say about it! Today I’m recapping the how, what and why of my own ketamine therapy, includin...
Transracial adoption into a Mormon family
24 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Tara Herbert opens up about how her identity was repeatedly erased: as a transracial adoptee in a white Mormon family, as a Black woman misled about t...
STALKED on a Mormon mission
17 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
We’re telling more mission tales, focusing on the lack of safety many missionaries experienced. From stalkers and hostile governments to dangerous c...
Experiencing domestic violence in an LDS marriage
10 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Only three days into her honeymoon, Gabby's husband began abusing her. She believed he was a good Mormon boy because he’d always played the part. Th...
Girl(scamp), so confusing
03 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
As Charli XCX knows, being a girl can be so confusing—especially for a post-Mormon! Around the campfire today, we're chatting about grieving identit...
Conversion therapy to drag diva
26 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Meredith Peterson shares the journey that led to her coming out as a transgender woman. She tried to live the model Mormon life, including going on a ...
r/ExMormon
19 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Buckle up for the best (and craziest) posts from the exmormon subreddit. I’ve curated wild stories, thought-provoking questions, and hilarious comme...
Meeting myself after Mormonism with Kelsey Wells
12 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
After 10 years, Kelsey Wells is finally ready to share her whole story about leaving Mormonism. We dive into her devout Mormon upbringing, her husband...
Don't be mean to missionaries!
05 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
First Wednesday of the month means it’s time for a campfire chat! I’m reading and responding to your thoughts, questions and advice inquiries. Som...
SHELF-BREAKER(S) with Zelph on the Shelf
29 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Many of us who are ex-religious can pinpoint a moment when everything came crashing down. Today, we are talking through those moments. They run the ga...
Ex-Mormon Mean Girl
22 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Today, I unpack the Mormon-run "Ward Radio" hate episode about little old me! I discuss my reservations about snark content and then proceed to dive i...
BRIEF DEATH EXPERIENCE
15 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Andrew flatlined and had an afterlife experience that really shook up his Mormon worldview when he was brought back to life. This kicked off an unrave...
I had a COW at EFY
08 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
EFY aka Especially for Youth aka Mormon youth summer camp- let's get into it. From COWs (crushes of the week) to creepy counselors to Christian worshi...
Married people have crushes too?!
01 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
My partner Bentley joins to kick-off our new once-a-month campfire chat tradition. We answers all your burning questions (how to start swearing, what ...
FOUND JESUS, LEFT MORMONISM with Nicole Mitchell
24 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Connecting with Jesus was the catalyst for Nicole leaving the LDS church. After telling her Mormon story (which includes addiction, foster care & a te...
PATRIARCHAL CURSINGS
17 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
We’re talking Mormon fortune-telling aka patriarchal blessings. And how, for many ex-Mormons, they were less of a blessing and more of a curse. I gi...
Let's talk about (ex-religious) sex!
10 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Sex therapist and self-proclaimed sex witch Aimee Heffernan talks us through all things sexual health. She answers questions about pornography, mastur...
Ruby Franke & the Mormonism of it all
03 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
When it comes to the Ruby Franke case, many of us are wondering- how Mormon is all of this? Samantha Shelley and I answer that question today from ou...
CATHOLIC SCHOOL DROPOUT
27 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Evelyn fell DEEP into fundamental Catholicism as a struggling teen, to the point of only wearing skirts (even to go swimming). But once she started at...
I KISSED A GIRL AT GIRLS CAMP
20 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Gather 'round the fire for some wild stories from Mormon girl's camp. These tales include traumatizing object lessons, "snipe hunting" and getting sec...
THE CHURCH BROKE OUR FRIENDSHIP
13 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
BFFs since third grade, Tanner and I experienced most of our faith journeys together. When Tanner came out as gay and then left the Mormon church, I w...
OVERSHARING IS CARING
06 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
TMI? Never! This episode I answer all your juicy questions and make a few confessions along the way. We’re chatting about wandering thoughts while m...
INFERTILITY & FAITH w/Jaci Marie Smith
28 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Jaci tells the whole story of her infertility journey, focusing on the faith aspect of things. We discuss how we feel about “God’s timing”, how ...
FORGIVE US FOR WE HAVE SINNED
21 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Today Ty French and I get to play Mormon bishop and, spoiler alert, we’re sending some of you straight to jail (forget the sacrament)! We read your ...
EXMO MOM TELLS ALL
14 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Today I'm getting really real about the realities of motherhood, especially as a recovering Mormon. I talk about feeling like a failure to be properly...
SUBSCRIBE TO SELF WORTH w/Jenna Rammell
07 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Jenna Rammell, founder & CEO, opens up about stepping away from Mormonism after years of "unsubscribing" from the many facets of it that felt uncomfor...
What the *eff* is Kolob?!
31 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Welcome to the weird world of Mormon deep doctrine! We’ll be answering the titular question as well as: does Satan control the waters? Is Bigfoot ac...
Psychedelics & Spirituality w/Christian Snuffer
24 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
If there's one thing post-Mormons tend to be interested in, it's magic mushrooms. Christian talks in depth about psychedelics as medicine and how they...
MORMON DATING GONE WRONG
17 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Welcome to the weird world of Mormon dating. Bentley joins me for moral support this week because these stories are particularly wild ones! There are ...
From religious OCD to self love
10 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
The Mormon church was EVERYTHING to today's guest Jenna Jarvis- so much so that she was diagnosed with religious OCD. She shares about what it was lik...
ONE YEAR of Girlscamp!
03 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Happy Girlscamp-iversary! We're celebrating one year together (albeit a tad early) by talking about the lessons I learned in 2023. These range from ho...
Pulp(it) Fiction
27 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Except for it's non-fiction! These stories of wild things said from a Mormon church pulpit prove that truth is indeed stranger than fiction. The tales...
Existential crisis alert
20 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
There’s nothing like working through the “Questions of the Soul” (a la Preach my Gospel) to get one pondering the meaning of existence. This wee...
In memoriam of my dad
13 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
My dad died unexpectedly at age 54. Today I talk about what it's been like to process his death, especially the spiritual side of it all. I also read ...
How do I make friends! w/Lucy Hutchins
06 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Finally! We’re talking ALL things female friendship, especially when it comes to mixed-faith ones. But first, Lucy shares her own faith journey and ...
Merry X(Mormon)-Mas
29 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
It's Christmastime! For those who celebrate. And for those who celebrate but it's a little ~complicated.~ On top of telling crazy Mormon Christmas sto...
Sister missionaries turned lovers
22 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
You heard that right! Lola and Jayden were sister missionaries serving in the same area when they struck up a friendship that turned into a romance. A...
Your bishop said WHAT?
15 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
We’re back to round out the crazy bishop conversation (for now). Bentley joins to help breakdown more stories about bishops which include odd and un...
BIG, BAD MORMON BISHOP
08 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Fair warning, this episode is full of feminine rage. Because if anything warrants ranting and raging, it’s Mormon bishop stories. We focus today on ...
MORMON MOM, EX-MORMON DAUGHTER
31 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
What do you get when a Relief Society president, stake Young Women's counselor and exmormon record a podcast episode? You'll have to listen and find o...
JOSEPH SMITH'S A WITCH
25 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Mormon history can get, well, witchy. So in honor of Halloween, we're exploring all of the folklore magic elements of Joseph Smith and the start of th...
ELDER EXORCIST & OTHER SPOOKY MORMON TALES
18 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The intersection of Mormonism and scary stories is surprisingly fruitful. Or is it that surprising? Bayley and I have a spooky and silly time reading ...
Being ignored as a Black woman
11 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Feeling entirely overlooked on the front row during Relief Society was Brialee's last straw that led to her leaving the LDS church. Before that, she h...
*Uncensored* Campfire Q&A
04 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
I said not to hold back with the questions and you certainly didn’t! In this solo episode I address the full gamut of post-Mormon subjects- from por...
So we're drinking coffee now?! w/Emilie Kiser
27 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
After converting to Mormonism at 17-years-old, Emilie Kiser was all in on the religion. She opens up about the details of her whole faith journey into...
Finding the magic in post-Mormonism w/Amber Fillerup
20 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Welcome to Ambyland, campers! This week Amber shares her Mormon/Post-Mormon saga- from snark forums and slut-shaming to sex-positivity and self-love. ...
Spilling the Mormon temple secrets
13 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
With all the mystery that shrouds the Mormon temple, I do my best to lay it all out on the table. After an (albeit chaotic) rundown of what goes on in...
Reformed mean girls for Jesus w/Abby Benson-Schwallie
06 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Abby grew up as devout an evangelical Christian as they come, but when she went to college for a theology degree things quickly started to shift. Now ...
Why are so many influencers Mormon?! w/Kylie Katich
30 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Before we dive into the Mormon influencer phenomenon, Kylie and I discuss her upbringing as a Utah non-Mormon who went to Catholic school. We compare ...
The nitty gritty of (post-Mormon) grief
25 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Grief is a beast and adding a post-Mormon layer makes it even more confusing and complicated. After Maddy’s dad died, she has deconstructed not only...
Who I am since my dad died
23 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Last year Maddy's dad suddenly and unexpectedly died. Today she opens up about what it's like to experience such an immense loss, especially so fresh ...
My Big Fat Mormon Wedding
16 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
It doesn't get more quintessentially Mormon than a low-budget cultural hall wedding reception between two 20-year-olds who've known each other for a f...
I didn't fit the "Mormon mold" w/Indy Blue
09 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Growing up Mormon comes with some baggage and Indy Blue opens up about what it's been like for her to unpack. She speaks about her experience facing j...
Mixed-faith meets its match
02 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
What do you do when your wife leaves the LDS church and your whole world is upended? Zac Hayward speaks in today's episode to the believing side of a ...
I'm post-Mormon but can't kick the patriarchy!
26 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Laura Danger of ThatDarnChat lends her expertise on creating an equitable split of the domestic labor, especially for those of us raised religious wit...
What's REALLY going on at BYU?
19 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Today Reagan Curtis joins me to dissect what goes down at BYU - the good, the bad and the beard cards. As THE Mormon religious university, looking at ...
MONSTER...ER, MORMON-IN-LAW
12 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The Mormon in-laws are, well, Mormon in-lawing. Today we're unpacking stories about raspberry leaf tea drama, a MIL refusing to wash tanktops and a we...
POSTMO STARTER PACK
05 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Bentley is back at Girlscamp! We share our reactions to your post-Mormon starter pack submissions (the classic steps of leaving the church, "must-have...
TRAUMA ON TREK
28 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
I hope you have your bonnets and bloomers ready, because this week we're diving in to all the wild things that went down on Mormon trek. Listeners bew...
HOE ERA W/JACI MARIE SMITH
21 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
By popular demand, Jaci Marie Smith comes to Girlscamp! I was honored to sit down with Jaci and talk through her story of leaving Mormonism. She share...
PALM READING & PATRIARCHAL BLESSINGS W/ASH ADAMS
14 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Get ready to get enchanted by Ash Adams. Ash shares the spiritual path she took from ultra-traditional Mormon (and self-proclaimed Duggar wannabe) to ...
POST-MO TESTIMONY MEETING
07 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Gather 'round the fire for a good old girls camp testimony meeting. But this time, we're doing it our way! I share your testimonies of moving on from ...
SELF DISCOVERY & THE TRANSGENDER EXPERIENCE
31 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Kadie comes on the pod today to share her experience leaving the Mormon church and then discovering she is transgender. She tells about growing up in ...
MORMON "MAGIC UNDERWEAR" AKA GARMENTS
24 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Magic underwear, Jesus jammies, angel chaps... that's right, we're talking about Mormon garments. And boy is there a lot to cover. And there WAS a lot...
MODEST ISN'T HOTTEST
17 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Get ready to step into your feminine rage as we talk about all things Mormon modesty. First I tell my own tale of modesty run ins as a Mormon teen and...
POSTMORMON PIONEERS W/SAL OSBORNE
10 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Come hang with Sal Osborne and I! Sal gives us campers a behind the scenes look at what went into her Hulu documentary Mormon No More. She shares more...
PARDON MY FRENCH W/TY FRENCH
03 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Ty French is here and he did not come to play! We walk through his whole story- coming out, leaving Mormonism and finding his dream life in LA. We dis...
LEAVING FOR LOVE W/TISHMAL
26 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The ethereal Rachel Brockbank (artist and native name Tishmal) graces Girlscamp today with her post-Mormon story. She shares of her struggles with the...
GIRLSCAMP GOES TO THERAPY
19 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
No more unauthorized therapizing by yours truly - today we are joined by an actual therapist! Danielle Calder specializes in religious trauma and fait...
GIRLSCAMP GOES TO THERAPY
19 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
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BOYSCAMP
12 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Girlscamp? More like boys camp! This week we've got a panel of guys to give us an inside view on their post-Mormon male perspective. Bentley, Jed and ...
POSTMORMON PARENTHOOD
05 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
If parenting weren't complicated enough, throw post-Mormonism into the mix! This week I discuss what I hope to teach my kids, how I face the fear of r...
GETTING RIGHT FROM PURITY CULTURE
29 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Purity culture failed us and *effed* us big time and Ellen Young and I share plenty of examples to prove it. Some highlights: tingly "devils lube", a ...
FUNNY FOR A GIRL(SCAMP) W/MADI MURPHY
22 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Has Girlscamp peaked so soon?! This week the enchanting Madi Murphy of The Bad Broadcast tells all re:leaving Mormonism. Along the ride she talks abou...
MRS. MIXED-FAITH MARRIAGE MENTOR
15 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
I pushed through some serious laryngitis to bring you today's episode with our mixed-faith mentor, Jacquelyn Covey. Jacquelyn shares her story startin...
A WORD TO THE WISE ON THE WORD OF WISDOM
08 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Today we talk about first time experiences with all the Mormon forbidden substances. There's stories about getting high at Disneyland, enlisting a men...
RECONNECTING WITH SPIRITUALITY POST MORMONISM
01 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
McKenna Petty comes to Girlscamp to tell us about her experience getting spiritual answers that contradicted what she was raised to believe. We talk a...
IN OUR POSTMORMON FRIENDSHIP ERA
22 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Listen and be graced by the wisdom of Chelsea Homer! Chelsea chats all about how to tap into community and form healthy and fulfilling friendships aft...
CRAZY MORMON MISSION STORIES
15 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Tommy Johnson is on the pod today to react to your wild (and troubling) tales from your Mormon missions. We cover rebel missionary groups, militaristi...
POST MORMON MARRIAGE THERAPY
08 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
This week I’m joined by the first guest of the pod- my husband, Bentley Rawle! We chat candidly about what it’s like to marry as (very) young Morm...
FINDING PEACE OUTSIDE OF MORMONISM
01 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
So I left the Mormon church, now what? Well it turns out, as the Pinterest graphics suggest, sometimes the end is just a beginning. I talk this week a...
WHY I LEFT THE MORMON CHURCH
25 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In today’s inaugural episode, we’re talking about the vision for the Girlscamp podcast (hint: community and connection) and all the weird things t...