Kept Secrets - A podcast about overcoming childhood (sexual) abuse
Episodes
Episode 44 - A Little Catching Up…
19 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Hello!! I’m back with a catch up episode. A lot has changed this past year. I talk about how my trauma and PTSD have been affected by weight loss su...
Episode 43 - Overcoming Shame and Guilt After Sexual Abuse.wav
20 Feb 2025
Contributed by Lukas
If you have ever felt guilt and shame about being abused, you will want to listen to this episode. I talk about my own feelings and how I was able to ...
Episode 42 - Ways to Reclaim Your Life After Trauma with Self-Care
05 Feb 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will tell you about a few ways to show yourself self-care after trauma. Self-care is so important in our healing! (I'm still workin...
Episode 41 - 10 Exercises to Heal Your Inner Child
12 Nov 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss an online article and give you some personal examples of how I was able to reach my inner child and work with her.
Episode 40 - The Menendez Brothers and Why Children Don't Tell...Putting it Together!
21 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss the Menendez Brother's case and why children don't talk or tell about abuse. Then, I discuss my opinion on both cases ...
Episode 39 - Childhood Trauma: Signs You're Repressing Traumatic Memories
14 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode I will talk about signs of repressing your traumatic memories. I use a few personal examples. I hope it's helpful.
Episode 38 - How childhood trauma and dissociation result in horrible adult problems
23 Sep 2024
Contributed by Lukas
This episode discusses how we dissociate and the longer-term problems that occur in our lives.
Episode 37 - What is the link between trauma and dissociation? And an update about my Alcatraz visit
16 Sep 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Let’s talk about the link between trauma and dissociation.
Mini Episode - 36: Quick update: Two days until I return to Alcatraz Island
01 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
A quick update on feelings and anxieties about returning to where my healing began in 2007.
Episode - 35 Are you a codependent survivor of childhood sexual abuse?
27 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I discuss symptoms of codependency and how to escape it.
Episode 34 - Part 3 // Living with Trauma: How to Cope with Flashbacks
22 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will give examples of flashbacks and things that you can do to cope. I will also discuss personal experience.
Episode 33 - Part 2 // Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
01 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Part 2 about Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. I give personal experiences and discuss treatment options.
Episode - 32 Part 1 // Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
24 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I give some detail about what PTSD is like for me.
Episode 31 - Living w/someone who has PTSD. Special guest, my husband, Ryan
03 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Previously recorded but not shared on Spotify.
Episode 30 - Listener’s Story #2 Julie’s Story
23 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
This episode is Julie’s story. It’s crazy how much she and I have in common. Take a listen!
Episode 29 - Listener’s Story #1 - Anna’s Story
18 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
This is our FIRST listener story! Anna’s story is a powerful story. You have to listen!
Episode 28 - Let’s talk about how to improve our self-esteem
09 Oct 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will give 6 ways you can help boost your self-esteem
Episode 27 - Let’s talk about low self-esteem
13 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will talk about low self-esteem and see if we have it
Episode 26 - Let’s talk about long-term side effects of childhood trauma
31 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode I will give some examples of the long-term side effects that I personally struggle with and a little more…
Episode 25 - Let’s talk about ‘How Childhood Trauma May Affect Adult Relationships’
02 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss why we may have issues in our adult relationships. I also give some examples.
Episode 24- Let’s talk about why children don’t tell they were abused
21 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will talk about reasons why kids don’t tell anyone when they are sexually abused.
Episode 23 - Let’s talk about adult behaviors of someone who has experienced trauma as a child
14 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
And this episode, I will talk about five different adult behaviors of someone that has experienced trauma as a child. I will also give a few examples ...
Episode 22 - Let’s talk about finding and getting to know YOUR inner child
10 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will give examples of what you can do (and what I did) to find and nurture my inner child.
Episode 21 - Let’s talk about my face-to-face with my abuser many years later!
25 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will talk about an interaction I had with my main abuser…and how it affected my inner child.
Episode 20 - Let’s talk about the legal system for victims of abuse…
11 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss my personal experience with the legal system in a small town in the mid 1990’s. There are a couple trigger warnings ...
Episode 19 - Let’s talk about discussing sexual assault with your kids!
28 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss ways to talk you your kids (all ages) about sexual assault.
Episode 18 - Let’s talk about post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)!
07 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
This episode discusses symptoms of PTSD. I discuss some personal experiences, too!
Let’s talk about shame!
23 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Episode 17 - In this episode, I talk about shame and how to recognize it within your own behavior.
How to recognize the sexual grooming of a child
14 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will tell the story of how I was groomed by my main abuser. **TRIGGER WARNING ** when I start talking about the first time I was ab...
Traumatic Bond, Self-Destruction and A Love Story
30 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
This week’s episode discusses the Traumatic Bond that was broken, the self-destruction I put myself through and a love story. And a special announce...
Ten things to never say to or ask a victim/survivor
24 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will give examples of things you shouldn’t say to or ask a victim/survivor of sexual abuse. Be warned. I get very defensive for u...
Why do I think I became a “survivor” when others in similar situations didn’t?
16 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I will discuss the 7 steps that I took to become a survivor of childhood abuse.
While I’m successful and a “survivor,” I still carry baggage from my childhood.
10 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this first episode of season 2, I discuss baggage I still carry from my childhood. I talk about sadness, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and other thing...
Ten ways you can heal the trauma
15 Nov 2022
Contributed by Lukas
In episode 10, I discuss ten ways you can heal from your trauma. I talk about examples during my personal journey to healing.
Putting the blame where it goes…My ah-ha moment!
08 Nov 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and a warm beverage. This episode discusses putting the name back on the abuser. I also discuss PTSD and different types of things I ha...
Red Flag? How can a stupid flag help?
03 Nov 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a cup of your favorite coffee, a blanket and go with me as I dive into my anxiety issues. This episode discusses how to find a nurturing relation...
Personal Testimony and Praise to God (Please listen-it’s worth it)
26 Oct 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and some tissues and hear how God took the brokenness and healed my soul.
With a heavy heart, I finally tell someone…
25 Oct 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and a cup of coffee! This episode talks about how I finally had the courage to tell someone about the many years of childhood sexual ab...
Saying Goodbye to Someone…My Mom
17 Oct 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and some tissues. In this episode, I discuss the relationship I had with my mother…to the very end and even now.
Anger toward the Manipulation Monster Begins!
10 Oct 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a cup of coffee and a blanket. Cuddle up to hear about how I finally found the anger toward my abuser. Listener discretion is advised.
At the age of 14, Nikki tried to escape the daily torture of her abuser.
04 Oct 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and a cup of coffee and get ready to talk about grief and the mental torture of my abuser. **Trigger warning, I will be talking about a...
Manipulation, Stock Car Racing and The Andy Griffith Show
26 Sep 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Grab a blanket and a cup of coffee. We are going to talk about my experience with an abuser and the things that tormented me mentally. I discuss inter...
Welcome to Kept Secrets!
20 Sep 2022
Contributed by Lukas
Episode 1 - Grab a cup of coffee and a blanket and let me introduce myself, my past, and my childhood secrets to you. This episode is mainly a big bal...
Kept Secrets - A podcast about overcoming childhood (sexual) abuse (Trailer)
19 Sep 2022
Contributed by Lukas