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Episodes
Flawless: NPD, ASPD, STPD and Inter-Familial Childhood Torture
19 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
TRIGGER WARNING: CHILDHOOD SEXUAL ABUSEIn this episode, we meet Flawless, a young woman grappling with the effects of an intense lack of safety in chi...
Simone: Living with BPD, ADHD, Autism and Family Chaos
22 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Simone shares her struggles with a dysfunctional family dynamic. Diagnosed with recurring depression and BPD, she wonders if ADHD and autism might bet...
Loksat Part 2: Love & Desctruction
04 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE, VIOLENCE AND MANIPULATIONLoksat, diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder in his late teens, discusses his why he now th...
Loksat: NPD with ASPD Traits - Abusive Relationship Patterns
18 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
TRIGGER WARNING: DISCUSSIONS OF ABUSELoksat was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) at a young age but now, having started to reconn...
Learning Vulnerability - Ilkin Part 2
04 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Ilkin was diagnosed with NPD in his early twenties, as well as ADHD and mild OCD. His NPD drove him to achieve in his career, but also to self-destruc...
Ilkin: A Journey from Specialness to Ordinariness - Part 1
04 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Ilkan comes from a country that was once part of the USSR. He shares his journey of self-discovery and recovery .and reflects on the perceptions he he...
Invisible Part 2: NPD Recovery
31 Jul 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In a candid discussion, support-forum moderator and creator of npd-recovery.com, "Invis", opens up about her journey through addiction and mental heal...
Invisible: BPD, NPD & ASPD = cPTSD
20 Jul 2025
Contributed by Lukas
To celebrate the launch of the new npd-recovery.com website, Its creator, Invisible, joins us to share parts of her journey.In between putting togethe...
Haifa - Bird in a Cage
20 May 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this podcast episode, Haifa discusses her diagnoses of borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder, giving insight into t...
Lack of Internal Structure & Enmeshing Relationships
20 Apr 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Enmeshed families are said to be created by adults who do not have clear psychological boundaries. These boundaries are part of what helps a child to ...
Derek - NPD
18 Jan 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Derek is an English teacher who has spent decades running a classroom with strength and confidence. Behind the scenes, he battled the trauma of very p...
Hiding: What is Behind Our Walls?
11 Dec 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Have you ever had one of those nightmares where you are in a group of people and something really humiliating has happened?Shame is such a deep, power...
NPD Awareness Month
21 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
To mark the inaugural NPD Awareness Month, 4 guests joined the creator of this campaign, Reddit moderator Invisible Monster, for a moving discussion a...
Ryan Part 2: NPD, Courage and Authenticity
01 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Ryan faced addiction, rehab and the breakdown of his relationship as he wrestled with accepting his diagnosis. With the support of a therapist, he was...
Ryan Part 1: Breaking through Grandiosity (NPD)
23 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Ryan's family dragged themselves up out of poverty, but despite outward appearances, real happiness was elusive. With a second failed marriage, Ryan ...
Guide: BPD+NPD with traits of HPD & OCD
16 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Guide is a young person affected by a complex diagnosis, but who is facing it with determination and clarity.
Who - ASPD
24 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, Tulip sits down for a chat with Who about ASPD and her perspective on the stigma surrounding it.
Lisa Charlebois Part 2 - Healed Narcissist & Therapist
23 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Therapist Lisa Charlebois talks about treating people grappling with narcissism, what to look for in a therapist and her experiences with a borderline...
Lisa Charlebois Part 1 - Healed Narcissist & Therapist
12 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Lisa Charlebois is a therapist who specialises in treating narcissism. Why? Well, she is open about having suffered from it herself.Her openness and n...
Peanut : The Polyphonic Experience
25 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, Peanut (a.k.a polyphonic_peanut on Reddit) tells us what it's like to live day-to-day with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD): a...
Finn - Searching for Connection
17 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Finn talks about her recent realisation of the possiblity of qualifying for an NPD diagnosis, and looks back at her relationships with a new perspecti...
Carl - Thinking About Feeling (NPD)
10 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Carl tells us about searching for a diagnosis, how he experiences narcissism, and about his own approach to tackling it.
BPD and NPD Attraction
16 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Relationships between people with Borderline Personality Disorder or traits and people with grandiose narcissism are extremely common. What is g...
Early Morning Barking joins the Crew
04 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Casting with yet another participant from the land of british people, Few welcomes on to the cast Early Morning Barking/Richard! The two borderline (a...
Blaming a Child
02 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
On today’s episode Nota and Few sum up a conversation initially taking place on the forum and now brought to life on the pod, thanks to the larg...
Ruthless - Golden Child/Abused Child (ASPD)
16 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Ruthless talks to Nota about the difficulties of being the Golden Child, and what can happen when a parent undergoes extreme stress. The also discuss ...
Coping Strategies with NPD April
25 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
April’s producers have confirmed that she is still in the house after her last episode on misconceptions and so now, we’re going to turn t...
Meet Mold - Shame
22 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Warning: suicidal ideation, sexual abuse and drug use. Mold has travelled down a number of paths trying to find what works for them, and discovering m...
Misconceptions About Disorders - NPD April
18 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode the Paris Hilton of NPD e-girls u/aprilmelodyart swings back on the pod for a light chat about misconceptions surrounding NP...
DMA (Disordered Mums Anonymous) - Part 2
15 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
(Same text as part 1): Alright, so, maybe this episode ain’t so anonymous, cause we have both hosts Nota and Few and super special, not so secre...
DMA (Disordered Mums Anonymous) - Part 1
08 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Alright, so, maybe this episode ain’t so anonymous, cause we have both hosts Nota and Few and super special, not so secret guest Madame Milkshak...
Ruthless - Facing Yourself Head On (ASPD)
05 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The common mispereception is that people with personality disorders are unaware of their dysfunction and unwilling to deal with it when it arises. Thi...
The Attacking Inner Voice
21 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The outward behaviours that accompany narcissism are actaully a reaction to what is known as the Persecutory Inner Voice - a harsh, critical inner par...
X---ing the Darkness with Cluster B Milkshake Part 2
18 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Few and Madam Milkshake continue their conversation on a wide array of topics: varying types of relationships (home base, fillers, fantasies, self-est...
X---ing the Darkness with Cluster B Milkshake Part 1
14 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Generally people are told not to go out and raw dog life, but that’s precisely what Cluster B Milkshake does with the dark side of the human psyche ...
The Highly Sensitive Person and Vulnerable Narcissism
11 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Highly Sensitive People are thought to comprise around 20% of the population, and are characterised as being more perceptive of, and aroused by, subtl...
Meet Mud - Treatment & Punishment
07 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Warning: this episode mentions substance abuse and cruelty.NPD is well-known for causing pain. Nota talks to Mud, who has helped Nota understand a lot...
Scarcity - Parenting Part 3
03 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Might as well call us Alice, because Joella and Few go down a number of rabbit holes trying to understand the underlying behaviours and feelings aroun...
A Narcissist and Borderline Walk into a Bar and Lose the Plot Part 2
27 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Few and the Nameless Narcissist continue their lighthearted chat about the experience of being a Cluster B.
A Narcissist and Borderline Walk into a Bar and Lose the Plot Part 1
23 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
The Nameless Narcissist returns and the planned conversation quickly goes off the rails.
NPD April - Marginalisation and Finding Community
20 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Few has a discussion with April, a trans woman looking to share her experiences and contribute to the destigmatisation of NPD. They discuss the import...
Parenting &. Disorder - Part 1
13 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
There are few topics as exposing and yet as formative to disorders as parenting.In this episode, Few and Joella begin a discussion of parenting involv...
Mental Health Activist Katja - BPD & SPD
26 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Katja Pavlovna is a British campaigner who works hard to promote the realistic understanding of personality disorders. She is the co-founder of the m...
The Nameless Narcissist - NPD
18 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
Few meets YouTube and TikTok star the Nameless Narcissist, who has been working away to provide insight into NPD.Nameless is a witty guy, and in one o...
Collapse - Part 2
08 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
What are some triggers for collapse? And what are some ways to get through it? Nota and Few continue their discussion about one of the most dangerous ...
Collapse - Part 1
05 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
People with personality disorders have built up psychological defences during childhood to protect themselves from pain. But these don't always work. ...
The Stigma of Having a Personality Disorder
02 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
How does it feel to be given a diagnosis of a condition that is so heavily stigmatised? Is it possible to be open in public about having Narcissistic ...
A Warrior for Tenderness - BPD
24 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
How do we embrace the injured child within? In this episode, we meet Few, and learn about his history and journey.Warning: this episode discusses chil...
The First Time - Narcissistic BPD
17 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
What does narcissism feel like from the inside? What is it like to be given a diagnosis of a personality disorder? Host Nota shares her story.