System Speak: Complex Trauma and Dissociative Disorders

Recap: 2026 ISSTD Annual Conference (Part 1)

06 Apr 2026

Contributed by Lukas

Our recap of the 2026 ISSTD Conference.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUN...

Detachmenting

23 Mar 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We share some recovery learning.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HER...

Skate Park, Unedited

16 Mar 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We share about recognizing our own timeline, the support of music, and bookending with islands.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can sub...

Facing Terror

09 Mar 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We give a therapy update with some recovery support.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JO...

Guest: Laura Brown

03 Mar 2026

Contributed by Lukas

Laura Brown shares with our study group about her book Not the Price of Admission.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email ...

Not the Price, Chapter 7, Part 2

26 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 7 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Not the Price, Chapter 7, Part 1

24 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 7 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Limerence and Control, Part 3

19 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We explore about “Limerence” as a trauma response.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can ...

Limerence and Control, Part 2

17 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We explore about “Limerence” as a trauma response.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can ...

Limerence and Control, Part 1

12 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We explore “Limerence” as a trauma response.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN T...

Rage

10 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We share therapy updates about discovering “rage”.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can ...

Someone

05 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We share therapy updates about showing up for myself/ves, that it is only me who can, and what that means about partsiness as a system.Our website is ...

Guest: Frank Putnam

02 Feb 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We talk with our guest, Dr. Frank Putnam about his new book, Old Before Their Time(Routledge, December 2025).Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podca...

Uneven Mourning

29 Jan 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We share words in response to what happened in Minneapolis.CLICK HERE to see the names of known people who died-by-ICE in 2025.I would add the name of...

Back to the DMV. Twice.

26 Jan 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We go back to the DMV.  Twice.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.Content Note: Content on this w...

Four Compassions

22 Jan 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We look at trying to see ourselves accurately using step four from recovery.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the...

Hard Bread

19 Jan 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We orient ourselves to the new year through recovery readings.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE....

Emails

02 Jan 2026

Contributed by Lukas

We read emails from listeners, including one about us being doxed again.Link to BOOKS — System SpeakNOTE:  We also talked in the community about ho...

Flooded

25 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

The family talks about our experience in the PNW flood.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can...

Islands Unbanished

22 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a therapy update about reconnecting to ourselves, and how that reconnects our timeline, too.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You c...

Fantastic Bees

18 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

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Too Late

15 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a therapy update about learning we are the only ones who can rescue our inner children (littles).Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast....

The Hot Butler

11 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

The kids share about their summer, and we talk about untangling from shiny happy.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email t...

Not the Price, Chapter 6

08 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 6 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Emails - Hot Topic: News Cycle Response

03 Dec 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a response to the current news cycle.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE...

Guest: Wendy Lemke

30 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk with clinician Wendy Lemke about hypnosis.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN...

Guests: Matt Robinson & Milissa Kaufman from McLean

30 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with Matt Robinson & Milissa Kaufman from McLean.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE....

IndigeQueer

27 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about the Canoe Journey with our tribe.More information about the history of Two Spirit:From The Indigenous FoundationFrom Diverse EldersFrom...

Guest: Sandra Simpson

24 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with lived experience guest, Sandra Simpson.https://www.traumacontinuum.org/leap/Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit a...

Unconquerable

20 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We explain about euphoric recall.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HE...

Taylor’s Massage

17 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share our first experience getting a massage.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN T...

Emails

13 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.Resources referenced:The Unique and Its Property (Max Stirner)Lucretius' poem De Rerum Natura"Living for Pleasu...

Not the Price, Chapter 5

10 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 5 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Annihilation Anxiety

06 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We jump right into searching about "annihilation anxiety" after the previous podcast interview.Referenced links in order of finding them:Chicago Analy...

Guest: Doris D'Hooghe

03 Nov 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk with guest Doris D'Hooghe from the Trauma Center in Belgium.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast...

Emails: Healing Em, Healing Me

30 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to a listener email.We do talk about protecting inside Littles and Babies.  Note: For clarity, the part of us referenced is “Em...

ReEmpower-ing

27 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a therapy update about power dynamics, exploitation, colonization, and taking back our own power.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast....

Free Pizza

23 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We went bowling.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  Once you ar...

Not the Price, Chapter 4

20 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 4 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Announcement: Upcoming Trainings

07 Oct 2025

Contributed by Lukas

Fall Trainings & Events with Dr. E, CLICK HERE. (Anyone registered may attend.)Fundraiser with Dr. E, Dr. Laura Brown, & Dr. Chuck Benincasa, ...

Licensed

25 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about getting our license - and the triplets starting to drive!Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the pod...

High Demand Religion Presentation for ISSTD

22 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share the dress rehearsal of our ISSTD Presentation about High Demand Religion.When recording this, community feedback included reference to this, ...

Shoulda Coulda

18 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We give a therapy update.Note: The quote “Trauma in a person, decontextualized over time, looks like personality. Trauma in a family, decontextualiz...

Not the Price, Chapter 3

15 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to chapter 3 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Emails

11 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.Andrea Gibson substack referenced is HERE.You can google “JADE Al-Anon” to learn more about JADE (even from...

Guest: Dr. Chuck Benincasa (Part 3 of 3)

08 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk about liberation framework with Dr. Chuck Benincasa - website is HERE.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Guest: Dr. Chuck Benincasa (Part 2 of 3)

04 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk about liberation framework with Dr. Chuck Benincasa - website is HERE.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Guest: Dr. Chuck Benincasa (Part 1 of 3)

01 Sep 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk about liberation framework with Dr. Chuck Benincasa - website is HERE.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to t...

Smarty

28 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

internatinoal advice for you.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. ...

My Own Ship

25 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

More therapy about the "ships" - including memory time breakthroughs for healing.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email t...

Bagel Songs

21 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share what we are learning in and practicing from therapy.The Water Song is sung with permission and encouragement, and we sing it for cleansing an...

Ships

18 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

Our therapist talks to us about attachment and relationships.Dr. Thema Bryant’s Homecoming Podcast is HERE.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podca...

Emails

14 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUN...

Re-Introductions

11 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

The kids ask to re-introduce themselves.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie gro...

Homecoming (Part 3 of 3)

07 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and discuss Homecoming by Dr. Thema.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE C...

Homecoming (Part 2 of 3)

04 Aug 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and discuss Homecoming by Dr. Thema.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE C...

Homecoming (Part 1 of 3)

31 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and discuss Homecoming by Dr. Thema.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE C...

Guest: Dr. Thema Bryant

28 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk to Dr. Thema Bryant from the Homecoming Podcast.www.drthema.com  Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the p...

Beach Day

24 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We walk on the beach..Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  Once ...

Safety Lace

21 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share what we are learning with our new therapist.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can J...

Emails

17 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.News article referenced is HERE.   The original Go Fund Me site was HERE for the t-shirts.Link to 2026 Spring ...

Hereticness

14 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk about the movie Heretic.NOTE: If you have not seen the movie and don’t want spoilers, wait.  If you want to watch it, but don’t like horr...

Guest: Nichole Willden (Part 4 of 4)

10 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with survivor Nichole Willden about high demand religion and culty-ness.Nichole’s book:  Obscured PassagesLinks: website--nicholemwillden....

Guest: Nichole Willden (Part 3 of 4)

07 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with survivor Nichole Willden about high demand religion and culty-ness.The link to the original dissertation research on the BITE (Behavior,...

Guest: Nichole Willden (Part 2 of 4)

03 Jul 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with survivor Nichole Willden about high demand religion and culty-ness.Links: website--nicholemwillden.comsocials--@nicholemwilldenSubstack ...

Guest: Nichole Willden (Part 1 of 4)

30 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We speak with survivor Nichole Willden about high demand religion and culty-ness.Links: website--nicholemwillden.comsocials--@nicholemwilldenSubstack ...

Reconnected

26 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We get an email about welcoming new people to the community, and have lots to say.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email ...

Announcement: EmmaS Presenting for ISSTD

23 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

A Safety Belt for Staying Afloat in the Turbulence of Organized and Extreme AbusePresenters: Valerie Sinason, Emma Sunshaw, Faige Flakser & Susan ...

Price for Admission, Ch 2

23 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We look at the next chapter in Laura Brown’s book.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JO...

Emails: Depersonalization / How Memory Works

19 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails, specifically about questions regarding depersonalization and also how memory works.Our website is HERE:  Syst...

New Year

16 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a family update, including the impact of the first month of political changes.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an e...

Trash Chute

09 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We do more Star Wars therapy.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. ...

Partsy

05 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about what is happening in therapy with parts work.Edit note: Jules says the marble jar idea came from Brene Brown.  We have avoided that au...

Seattle

02 Jun 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about our surprise trip to Seattle.*Edit note: the language test can be either English or FrenchOur website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.Y...

Tooth Share

29 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share an experience at the dentist that felt activating, and how we used recovery to cope in the moment.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast...

Sharing

26 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from How It Works.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  ...

Guest: Larry Ruhl & Recovery (2 of 2)

22 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a conversation with Larry Ruhl about recovery.Note: There are background sounds when an alarm goes off during our conversation.Our website is...

Guests: Larry Ruhl & Recovery (1 of 2)

19 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share a conversation with Larry Ruhl about recovery.Link to “Little Bit Culty” episode about differentiating between healthy & culty 12-ste...

Introduction to Steps

12 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from How It Works.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  ...

My Own Rescue

05 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from How It Works.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  ...

Refocused

01 May 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from How It Works.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  ...

The C’s

28 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from How It Works.“We didn’t cause it.  We can’t control it.  We can’t cure it.”  But we can contribute compassion.Our website i...

Not the Price (Chapter 1)

21 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share from the first chapter of Laura Brown’s book, Not the Price of Admission.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an emai...

How It Works

14 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about discovering How It Works.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMU...

Tug of War

07 Apr 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share some of what we learned from the recovery community recently.HERE is the link to the detachment pamphlet mentioned.Our website is HERE:  Sys...

Recap: Dan Shaw Presentation

31 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We recap a presentation Dan Shaw gave at the ISSTD Washington, DC Regional Conference in fall 2024.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can...

Blue Lighting

24 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We learn to hold the presence of our therapist even when we are not in her office.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email ...

Charlottes

17 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

Charlottes from the community shares their story of lived experience with us, and we talk about the experience of learning about DID in academia.Our w...

Shock Week

03 Mar 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We try to process one week post-election.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMM...

Splinters and Stitches

27 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We give an update on therapy after sharing our symposium artwork in session.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the...

Connection

24 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share about symposium recovery - and progress!Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN ...

McLean at Harvard

20 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share some of what we learned at the McLean presentation at Harvard.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podc...

Guest: Jon Cleveland

17 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

Jon Cleveland shares with us about psychedelic research and HPPD.Jon’s email: [email protected] website is HERE:  System Speak Podc...

Emails

14 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUN...

Guest: Valerie Sinason

12 Feb 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We talk with ISSTD clinician Valerie Sinason (UK) about "infantacidal attachment".The "still face experiment" video on YouTube is HERE.The poem we ref...

Boxing Whales

16 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share an update from therapy, about learning how memory time and now time connect through re-enactments… and start looking at Memory Time where t...

Attachment Wounds

13 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We explain attachment wounds.The "still face experiment" video on YouTube is HERE.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email ...

Hidden Agenda

09 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We share how our therapist walked us through the “hidden agenda” of re-enactment that shows up as attachment drama in relationships.Four Reflectio...

Attachment Strategies

06 Jan 2025

Contributed by Lukas

We explain attachment strategies.Citation for the percentages came from a study of 10,500 mothers:  https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/14616...

Emails

26 Dec 2024

Contributed by Lukas

We read and respond to listener emails.Our website is HERE:  System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUN...